coherent thoughts of a madwoman
Life-Suckers. *laughs* its not being emo or whatever. not that. honestly, its just trippin’. well, basically, life-suckers is when you’re being pessimistic about your life. how you complain about it, and it totally sucks right? haha. basic thoughts about it. YOU cant blame a person to feel that way. we have our own ups and downs. and people have shit in their life. what they always say, “shit happens”. so whats the big deal if you mope once in a while. it depends on you, the life-sucker, to carried on with it. I am no expertise about life. my life sucks big time to say the least. my gawd, if you only knew. but you have to be wise. you have to think that everything has boundaries. you gotta have a limit in yourself. you got to be that and yet you got to be this also. being balance is the shit what in this.
to tell you the truth, it’s hard to be in this. i dont know how to put this into nice poetic words that you would basically admire and would understand. the thing is, its not really that understandable. i have a problem, obviously. I’m aware of it yet, sometimes I’m in denial, sometimes I’m abandoning it, sometimes it felt like i know it yet i don’t know how to solve it. it sucks. i felt like a crazy person. and it’s freaky to admit it. you know, bi-polar? i used to think i have that one but just mild though. now, i think I’m having multiple personalities. but it isn’t worst. or maybe i don’t have it? i don’t know. maybe i have social-downs. i like someone to be there, up to talk to. i want to take off things in my mind. I’m worried all the time. it stressed me out. mostly now, that i got no alcohol in my system in the 3days time now. ahhh. its killing me to be bored and stayed at home. though, thanks to my neighbors earlier today, i got fed. :) i was able to borrow some movies. yeah, it was actually fun to think? but something is really missing. and i don’t know what the frigging thing that is.
to tell you the truth, it’s hard to be in this. i dont know how to put this into nice poetic words that you would basically admire and would understand. the thing is, its not really that understandable. i have a problem, obviously. I’m aware of it yet, sometimes I’m in denial, sometimes I’m abandoning it, sometimes it felt like i know it yet i don’t know how to solve it. it sucks. i felt like a crazy person. and it’s freaky to admit it. you know, bi-polar? i used to think i have that one but just mild though. now, i think I’m having multiple personalities. but it isn’t worst. or maybe i don’t have it? i don’t know. maybe i have social-downs. i like someone to be there, up to talk to. i want to take off things in my mind. I’m worried all the time. it stressed me out. mostly now, that i got no alcohol in my system in the 3days time now. ahhh. its killing me to be bored and stayed at home. though, thanks to my neighbors earlier today, i got fed. :) i was able to borrow some movies. yeah, it was actually fun to think? but something is really missing. and i don’t know what the frigging thing that is.