Dead inside
I just realized I'm unable to express emotion. Ever since they've been back so has he, and I realized that he made me into what he was when we got together...cold hearted, emotionless, and solitare. It's like I'm retarded when it comes to relationships and dating because ever since I got things straight and over him, I don't want anyone and I reject any person that tries to get close to me. I just don't want to get crushed again. Everytime I see these people memories rush in and I'm bonbarded and I get overloaded and resort to drowning myself in drugs and alcohol which is pretty sucessfull in numbing this all away. I just need time I think away from everyone and everything just to figure a few things out.