scared
right now i feel like im dying. like im watching everyone else live while i dwindle away into nothingness. tears are constantly filling my eyes. i wish i knew what was wrong, with me or my life. i want so many things and they all seem so far away, and so unatainable. im afraid i will end up an middle aged woman all alone, afraid of life and afriad death, but waiting for the latter. all i want to do is crawl into a little ball and weep into my pillow. i dont know who i am.