Who's got a fuckin problem?

[ih8b1llg8s]

This has been an issue that I have brushed off my shoulder for some time because I really dont give 37 shits what most of you have to say sometimes. But over the past few years....mainly since I have been married, many of my long time friends from my youth have abandoned our friendship but continued friendships with others from our rather large

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[ih8b1llg8s]

Now that I finally have my internet back I can talk.

As said before by mer....I havent done any drugs except drink, and thats rare, in almost a year. Sadly I am not one to take SUBTLE hints. I am a very direct person and dont like to beat around the bush.

Matt. I appreciate everything you have done with and for me in the last few years. when mer was pregnant you paid for a prescription, lent me a cpl bux, and even drove me to St. Augustine when we were dating to see her. But I am still confused as to why you and Jeremy told Nick rather than coming to me and saying something to make me feel like a moron or gave me a hard verbal beating because you know I try to take my friends seriously. If you had just looked me in the eye and told me what I was doing could get me fired I would not have done it. Instead you and Jeremy simply throw me in front of the bus KNOWING FULL WELL it would RUIN MY LIFE worse than the simple drug habit already had. I still would like to hear something from Jeremy as I heard he pushed the issue more than you did and also didnt like me at all for some reason. I would also like to know why you dont make an effort to come see Anna. I appreciate your honest response and lack of an attitude.

Cliff.
I'm glad that you now see that being a married parent is nothing like what people tell you and you are NEVER prepared. I TRULY wish you the best of luck as I know first hand it is one of the most trying tests life brings forth.

Until now I NEVER KNEW you had any sort of problem with my now former drug habit and honestly thought you were avoiding me. I spoke to you and Scott at Dreamette and invited you both over. Neither showed. Made me feel shitty like you didn't care to see what I had accomplished in buying a home, raising a child, growing up, a little more now than then, and I felt left out in the dark. Not having friends around to chill with is what caused me to sit on my ass at home and smoke pot all the time, that and never having to pay for it. You say all my money is going to pot? wrong. Remember I didnt pay for my weed. All my money is going to my $1330 per month mortgage. It is that high because I was fired from PJs last year by friends not reaching out and helping. I never hung out because I never had money? Wrong again. I never hung out because I didnt have a license and Mer was always tired. She worked all day with screaming children and cranky ignorant fucks in Wal-Mart. You and Tiff know exactly what I mean from experience. She didnt want to take me somewhere to chill only to come get me later that night and have to work early the next morning so I just left it alone, and I didnt want to rely on anyone outside my own family for anything. I never have liked getting rides from anyone. If I cant get there on my own I just wont try.

Now about the comment you made about my wife...what the fuck was it for? you say you dont come around because of my drug habit but you make a FUCKED UP comment regarding my wife. I told you if you come around once in a while you might know what happens in my life and you respond with "if you leave your wife I might come around." I want an explanation / apology for that. that says my drug problem wasnt your only issue with me/us.

And why do you advise me to let a matter like this simply go? Are you willing to forget a friend of 8 years or more simply because I used drugs? I dont like drinkers, should I forget about you because you drink alcohol? who gives a fuck if one is legal and one isnt. Alcohol has bad side effects just like pot. I wont go into my personal opinions on legality here tho.

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[dragonsteddy]

It's elamentry my dear Watson....I mean Danielson.....Nick asked if did I know about you doing drugs, I said, yes. He checked the tapes. How simple can it be. That was my evil plot in it. A simple "yes". I am really sorry that it has caused you as much pain as it has. But I didn't give you drugs...i didn't tell you to do it...Altough, I did tell you not to do it, alot. Also, I don't think that I should have to pull you in a conor and verbally bash you to a pulp. You know how you have done all that stuff before us? Well, damn it. Your a big boy. You will make the choices on your own. But if you want me to come yell at you, I will. And I will make it good too. But just remember, you wanted it.

You don't want to talk to jeremy. There is nothing but malice there. His deal was that you weren't working when you were getting high, and MGR's shouldn't be getting stoned in the store. But I am sure you will see him sooner or later. I will tell him that you want to talk to him.

About Anna. Yeah...I sux. It is really about two thing,
1: The past drug thing, and the tidness of the house really gets to me. Makes me angry at you and mer, mostly you, because that is a look a like on how you grew up. You always said you never wanted to live like that.
2: I sux. Real simple here, above was the reason, but something like that shouldn't stop me from seeing her, or you guys.

I try to remember her B-day, and your and mers too. But I lost my b-day book, so I sux on that one. i know yours is around x-mas, the 27th??? Any who. But I did bring over x-mas presents. I really hope you guys liked them. i know they were much, but I tried.

I will tell you what.
I will start coming over once a week. Every week. I a pre-set day and time. And I will try to stick to that day and time Other wise I will let you know.
I will clean your house, but only once. You will keep it clean after that.
I want a key to your home. Don't know why, but it sounds good.
I want all birth days written down and given to me.
I want all drugs checked at the gate!!!!!! By EVERYONE!!!! NO DRUG POLCIEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Your friends and whomever else, can do drugs in the street or at their freinds house. but not in the home.
You know if one of your neighbors calls the cops about a drug ring in your home, like someone selling out of your house, boom. Cops kick in the door, the arrest everyone, and search everything, if they find ANYTHING! with a drug, you guys loose Anna, forever, and somebody is going to jail. They don't care if it's your's or a room mates, or a friends. Drugs and babys don't mix. That is a gamble I would never take with my child. Also, You know how Paul blew pot smoke in Anna's face a couple of times. What if he put a pinky full a coc in her mouth, nose. What if some body else does. Then what? What if she dies on an OD because of somebody's bright fucking idea to give her some fucking drug!!!!
You know what will happen then Daniel......
I will fucking beat you until near death. And if you don't kill that person before I get to you. Then I will do it for you. You too mer. Drugs are fucking bad.

I will help you. I am hear for you. but somethings don't mix with children. And a good home is to protect that child from all things that would cause it harm. So you need to fucking make it that way. As a father, husband, family, wife (mer), friend. Not to let it happen. Not to let anything like that happen.

Is that serious enough for you?