the open door
I think I finally figured out what's really been bugging me behind all the graduation hoopla.
It's the lack of closure.
Not just with the love life but with a lot of other things in general.
You feel this need to get some answers, otherwise the questions: the what ifs, the what nots and all those related to it will pester you relentlessly.
It's because I'm leaving this school with more questions than answers, more confusion to what i wanted clarified.
my good friend put it best over YM:
"pag walang closure, perpetually open for regret naman e
closure isn't always a possibility
but sometimes, you just have to get over it one way or another"
I don't really know how, or if I can, at least for now.
It's one of those things where the best solution hasn't been drafted yet. So you stumble in the dark, groping for anything that seems feasable. Note the word 'seems.' What 'seems' like a good idea at the time usually tends to aggravate it. Believe me, I know.
This brings to mind an abstract painting i saw. It looked like a door open, although all you could really see was the light pouring out of it.
So you stand there in its path, the door a quarter open. The light shines through it making a bright triangle on the floor. You want to see the mystery inside though you're not too sure if you want to leave the safety of the room.
You are motionless, perplexed, wanting to find the answers yet still unsure if the answers you seek are worth pursuing: worth the trouble, effort, and quite possibly disappointment.
Regret, or rather, it's impending possibility can be quite troubling.
It's the lack of closure.
Not just with the love life but with a lot of other things in general.
You feel this need to get some answers, otherwise the questions: the what ifs, the what nots and all those related to it will pester you relentlessly.
It's because I'm leaving this school with more questions than answers, more confusion to what i wanted clarified.
my good friend put it best over YM:
"pag walang closure, perpetually open for regret naman e
closure isn't always a possibility
but sometimes, you just have to get over it one way or another"
I don't really know how, or if I can, at least for now.
It's one of those things where the best solution hasn't been drafted yet. So you stumble in the dark, groping for anything that seems feasable. Note the word 'seems.' What 'seems' like a good idea at the time usually tends to aggravate it. Believe me, I know.
This brings to mind an abstract painting i saw. It looked like a door open, although all you could really see was the light pouring out of it.
So you stand there in its path, the door a quarter open. The light shines through it making a bright triangle on the floor. You want to see the mystery inside though you're not too sure if you want to leave the safety of the room.
You are motionless, perplexed, wanting to find the answers yet still unsure if the answers you seek are worth pursuing: worth the trouble, effort, and quite possibly disappointment.
Regret, or rather, it's impending possibility can be quite troubling.