Trepidation and defenestration
Tonight I have an appointment to meet RR after work to talk. It's not something I'm looking forward to. Not because I don't want to see him, but because I have a hard time imagining any outcome tonight that isn't a renewal of recent wounds. But I also thought that of my meeting last Fall with DB, and that turned out to be an entirely cathartic and renewing experience.
Still, with so much emotional investment, even now, the opportunity for additional heartbreak is just too likely. On both sides. I dread hurting him additionally as much as I dread being hurt myself.
Perhaps I'm just being too pessimistic after a hellacious work week. I'll go into it with the best attitude possible and give tonight by best and most positive effort. I owe RR that much at the very least.
Still, with so much emotional investment, even now, the opportunity for additional heartbreak is just too likely. On both sides. I dread hurting him additionally as much as I dread being hurt myself.
Perhaps I'm just being too pessimistic after a hellacious work week. I'll go into it with the best attitude possible and give tonight by best and most positive effort. I owe RR that much at the very least.