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well, in case anyone was wondering, im in indy right now. more specifically at the indiana heart hospital. the past three days have been surreal and otherworldly to say the least. walked out on my job and gave the finger to tthe owner thursday night, to be welcomed back with open arms. got off the clock at the end of the night and had a very intense, bizarre, and introspective ego-death type trip, then after about two hours of sleep woke up, still out of my mind, and noticed id missed like 6 calls from my parents. my grandmother is in the hospital, and we were told they coudl keep her alive with dopamine for a few hours until we got there. yesterday was spent in the car or in the hospital watching her and the family prepare for her death. she was ready for a while, then started fighting it. she saw her deceased husband. today shes worn out, not speaking much at the moment. shes sleeping more. she should be gone by tonight or tomorrow. i don't know when i'm coming back. i may come back tonight, only to return for funeral stuff in a fw days, or i may be here until midweek. i dont know. call me if you want and if my phones on. im holding up alright. i think its good that i got this warning right after a disturbing psychedelic experience; my coping skills are at peak level. i need to get off of here for now though, this is my sisters laptop. i love you all.