Dear Diary

[igotthemunchies]

Well life has been life. Again I've had ups and downs but recently I've had a big up followed by a fairly big down which I'm kinda stuck in but trying to get out. Like I said recently I like Ryan and on new years Brittany and I went to see Life Aqatica (NEVER see that) and then we went to his house. Jeff and Britt had a problem of some kind and she ended up leaving as soon as I had gone in a different room but I stayed anyway. I talked to ryan some, or I should say tried. He caught my eye and asked if I wanted to go outside so I did but it was freakishly cold and we ended up going in his room and were alone for maybe... 2 1/2- 3 minutes before kevin, ben, jeff, josh and all sorts of people came in and they just wouldn't leave. Around 1 I said bye to everyone because I had to go and he walked me out to my car and we kissed. I thought everything was fine and good and I enjoyed it and it was one of the best days I've had and then the next day we went to 6 flags and he was extremely distant. I felt like he wanted to be there, but not with me. Later that night he texted me and said it was too hard and that he didnt think we we're going to work out. I don't know where the hell it came from but I imagine I should have seen it coming. I mean I dont have the best of luck with guys but damn if that didn't come fast.
And guys wonder why girls turn lesbian.
Other than that there's not been much going on. I'm being my usual self and have saved all my homework until now. I also went to the movies to see Finding Neverland with Denise. That was absolutely awesome but surprisingly (<<< doesn't that look wrong?) sad. Just the same, it kicked butt. Johnny Depp is a god.
I also got my truck's transmission fixed. Yay truck.
Anyway, that is all.