an eventful night to be sure
Pierre
Everyone has their time. I had mine. You'll get yours one day and when you do, remember that comment. You'll realize how childish it was.
And again. Stop assuming. Where did I say your "fucking stupid".
12:45amHalee
i know how childish it was, im not denying it
Pierre
I remember saying to you how were on different levels. And you said were only 2 years apart. I didnt say anything after that...
12:49amHalee
and you wonder where my assumptions come from..comments like that.
12:49amPierre
You know why?
12:49amHalee
why did you not say anything after that?
no why? please tell.
Pierre
Because it showed how young you are. Age has nothing to do with it. Experience does. And I didnt see any that night when you said that.
That was the first sign. Dont get my wrong...its not a bad thing.
I've met monks who were so ahead I had no idea where to begin...
12:52amHalee
okay. but then why does everything you say make it sound like it is?
12:53amPierre
it is what?
12:53amHalee
like you're maing it out to be a bad thing.
experience according to who? compared to what?
i know where i have begun. i know who i am and i know my beliefs, that's what matters
Pierre
Im not going to get into a life lesson with someone who doesnt want to listen. That the problem. People think they know themselves so fucking good until its challenged. Your going to have your world shatter one day Halee Grimes.
1:00amHalee
im willing to listen pierre, i'm always willing to listen. give me something to listen to please and i will
and my world has shattered, believe me, it has
1:00amPierre
Halee...its fine.
1:00amHalee
that's why this is so hard for me
1:01amPierre
Your a good person and a loyal friend. I hope your live in peace and learn from others.
1:02amPierre
I can sit here and we can go back and forth. But you will learn on your own. I wish you the best with that. Hopefully its sooner than later.
1:03amHalee
can i just tell you something? not being mean of anything, i just want to tell you, so you know, and maybe you will understnad a little better why i act like this
i have dealt with so many hardships in my life. I have gone through so many problems and dealt with issues that children of my age at the time should not have to deal with. I was forced to think rationally like an adult when i was just a kid in elemantary school and had no idea of what to say and when i said the wrong thing i was punished. I was told my mom was worthless trash and my dad was a good for nothing drunk. both sets of parents and step parents where constantly trying to set me against the others and i bounced back and forth between it. i couldnt tell anyone anything and couldnt trust any of them. there have been so many nights i cried myself to sleep and wished for something new. I learned to only trust myself and that i was the only person i could count on and thats why i am so rooted in my belief in myself.
well it's too much to send on here so forget i ever said it then
1:11amHalee
i dont know, im sorry this all happened, just forget it, it's all silly anyways
1:12amPierre
Halee. I dont need to know anything. Nothing you tell me now will change my views on you. I understand you pretty well.
1:14amPierre
Im glad you got all this off your chest.
1:14amHalee
well thanks i guess
for listening? idk
1:14amPierre
I try.
Everyone has their time. I had mine. You'll get yours one day and when you do, remember that comment. You'll realize how childish it was.
And again. Stop assuming. Where did I say your "fucking stupid".
12:45amHalee
i know how childish it was, im not denying it
Pierre
I remember saying to you how were on different levels. And you said were only 2 years apart. I didnt say anything after that...
12:49amHalee
and you wonder where my assumptions come from..comments like that.
12:49amPierre
You know why?
12:49amHalee
why did you not say anything after that?
no why? please tell.
Pierre
Because it showed how young you are. Age has nothing to do with it. Experience does. And I didnt see any that night when you said that.
That was the first sign. Dont get my wrong...its not a bad thing.
I've met monks who were so ahead I had no idea where to begin...
12:52amHalee
okay. but then why does everything you say make it sound like it is?
12:53amPierre
it is what?
12:53amHalee
like you're maing it out to be a bad thing.
experience according to who? compared to what?
i know where i have begun. i know who i am and i know my beliefs, that's what matters
Pierre
Im not going to get into a life lesson with someone who doesnt want to listen. That the problem. People think they know themselves so fucking good until its challenged. Your going to have your world shatter one day Halee Grimes.
1:00amHalee
im willing to listen pierre, i'm always willing to listen. give me something to listen to please and i will
and my world has shattered, believe me, it has
1:00amPierre
Halee...its fine.
1:00amHalee
that's why this is so hard for me
1:01amPierre
Your a good person and a loyal friend. I hope your live in peace and learn from others.
1:02amPierre
I can sit here and we can go back and forth. But you will learn on your own. I wish you the best with that. Hopefully its sooner than later.
1:03amHalee
can i just tell you something? not being mean of anything, i just want to tell you, so you know, and maybe you will understnad a little better why i act like this
i have dealt with so many hardships in my life. I have gone through so many problems and dealt with issues that children of my age at the time should not have to deal with. I was forced to think rationally like an adult when i was just a kid in elemantary school and had no idea of what to say and when i said the wrong thing i was punished. I was told my mom was worthless trash and my dad was a good for nothing drunk. both sets of parents and step parents where constantly trying to set me against the others and i bounced back and forth between it. i couldnt tell anyone anything and couldnt trust any of them. there have been so many nights i cried myself to sleep and wished for something new. I learned to only trust myself and that i was the only person i could count on and thats why i am so rooted in my belief in myself.
well it's too much to send on here so forget i ever said it then
1:11amHalee
i dont know, im sorry this all happened, just forget it, it's all silly anyways
1:12amPierre
Halee. I dont need to know anything. Nothing you tell me now will change my views on you. I understand you pretty well.
1:14amPierre
Im glad you got all this off your chest.
1:14amHalee
well thanks i guess
for listening? idk
1:14amPierre
I try.