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so zac and i are done. and i know ive said this plenty of times before and im sure no one will believe me but thats ok. because i believe me. he is so wrong for me. i love him so much and that made it hard but the way he treated me was not how i deserve to be treated. always blowing me off for his friends and not appriciating me for everything i do for him. for not caring about me on christmas and not putting any thought into my present while i spent a long time on his and spent way more money. but it was never about the money. it was about him being too selfish to put me first sometimes. oh well. lesson learned. i guess i just got comfortable with him there because no matter how much we fought, i could still kiss and hold and hug him which made me feel better. but thats not what i need. i dont need to be with him because he holds me. others can hold me. forget valentines day. im not worried about finding a date for prom. i have plenty of time...and i have someone in mind already :)
im not looking for another boyfriend bc thats the last thing i want right now. i want to have fun with my friends i dont get to hang out with bc i had restrictions before. i want to be able to go to a party and not have to worry about what zac will think. and he can do whatever he wants too now. not like he didnt before anyways...boys are so confusing. i know your boys are important to you, but are they the ones making you dinner? do they buy you things for no reason? do they kiss you or love you or hold you that special way? can your boys call you at night to say goodnight or call just becuase youre on their mind? lol- good luck being happy with just your friends zac. you had it so good with me.
i cant get back with him. i would lose my bet :) craig and i bet that if in three weeks i am back with zac, i owe him $5 and a case of beer (his preference was budwiser i think) and if i dont then he gives me $5 and a case of miller light :) i dont even like beer but i took him up on it becuase i dont want to lose. i didnt want mine and zacs relationship to be a joke but it was. so now its done and im not sad. i promise im not. im a little angry still and furious he would blow me off like he did and then try to blame it on me. but im not sad. and thats a good start.
i saw alpha dog with craig tonight. it was pretty good - justin timberlake cant really act i guess. he wasnt too bad though- the ending is actually really sad. i couldnt believe what happened. its long but worth it - go see it.
god im ready for school to end. i wanna move out and be on my way to college. i am gonna try really hard to get my tats on spring break :) good luck for me ha...i think we are going to pc. who knows- plans change a lot
im not sad.
im not sad.
keep saying it.
im not sad.
so angry.
only angry.
im not looking for another boyfriend bc thats the last thing i want right now. i want to have fun with my friends i dont get to hang out with bc i had restrictions before. i want to be able to go to a party and not have to worry about what zac will think. and he can do whatever he wants too now. not like he didnt before anyways...boys are so confusing. i know your boys are important to you, but are they the ones making you dinner? do they buy you things for no reason? do they kiss you or love you or hold you that special way? can your boys call you at night to say goodnight or call just becuase youre on their mind? lol- good luck being happy with just your friends zac. you had it so good with me.
i cant get back with him. i would lose my bet :) craig and i bet that if in three weeks i am back with zac, i owe him $5 and a case of beer (his preference was budwiser i think) and if i dont then he gives me $5 and a case of miller light :) i dont even like beer but i took him up on it becuase i dont want to lose. i didnt want mine and zacs relationship to be a joke but it was. so now its done and im not sad. i promise im not. im a little angry still and furious he would blow me off like he did and then try to blame it on me. but im not sad. and thats a good start.
i saw alpha dog with craig tonight. it was pretty good - justin timberlake cant really act i guess. he wasnt too bad though- the ending is actually really sad. i couldnt believe what happened. its long but worth it - go see it.
god im ready for school to end. i wanna move out and be on my way to college. i am gonna try really hard to get my tats on spring break :) good luck for me ha...i think we are going to pc. who knows- plans change a lot
im not sad.
im not sad.
keep saying it.
im not sad.
so angry.
only angry.