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im very sad right now.
not in a depressed emo i hate life way.
but like a "my feelings are really hurt bc he picks stuff over me and i just wish he would love me better and i try to do my best at work but sometimes i get mad and do a bad job and sometimes i miss school bc im tired but sometimes i miss school bc it makes me so angry to see everyone going somewhere in life and having these classes mean something to them but im only doing enough to get by and then i dont know what the fuck im going to do in life" kind of sad.
tomorrow is my moms birthday. and we are fighting. but i still went to walmart after work and bought balloons and streamers and cake mix and candles and gross cream cheese frosting bc she loves it. i just finished blowing up 72 balloons and streaming up the kitching and cake baking and cake frosting and decorating and stuff..she would do the same for me.
i hate hating my mom. we used to be such good buddies. why did it have to change?
i wish zac would have called me tonight. i work too much and he plays poker too much and we dont hang out and he picks poker over me but if he read that he would get mad and say he doesnt and im crazy and we would fight so i should erase that.
but im not going to.
i need some new pictures. i made renee a blanket for christmas and im sleeping under it tonight. thats weird. i know.
i love love love rachael. i just wish her phone wouldnt die or turn off :(
i think if i cry at graduation, it will be bc its all over and everyone will leave and go live life and i will stay here and probably get married and have kids and do nothing. which would be ok but i kinda want to do something great. so at our 10 yr reunion everyone will say damn.
i just want to hear you say damn.
:)thats all. idk why i smiled at the end
not in a depressed emo i hate life way.
but like a "my feelings are really hurt bc he picks stuff over me and i just wish he would love me better and i try to do my best at work but sometimes i get mad and do a bad job and sometimes i miss school bc im tired but sometimes i miss school bc it makes me so angry to see everyone going somewhere in life and having these classes mean something to them but im only doing enough to get by and then i dont know what the fuck im going to do in life" kind of sad.
tomorrow is my moms birthday. and we are fighting. but i still went to walmart after work and bought balloons and streamers and cake mix and candles and gross cream cheese frosting bc she loves it. i just finished blowing up 72 balloons and streaming up the kitching and cake baking and cake frosting and decorating and stuff..she would do the same for me.
i hate hating my mom. we used to be such good buddies. why did it have to change?
i wish zac would have called me tonight. i work too much and he plays poker too much and we dont hang out and he picks poker over me but if he read that he would get mad and say he doesnt and im crazy and we would fight so i should erase that.
but im not going to.
i need some new pictures. i made renee a blanket for christmas and im sleeping under it tonight. thats weird. i know.
i love love love rachael. i just wish her phone wouldnt die or turn off :(
i think if i cry at graduation, it will be bc its all over and everyone will leave and go live life and i will stay here and probably get married and have kids and do nothing. which would be ok but i kinda want to do something great. so at our 10 yr reunion everyone will say damn.
i just want to hear you say damn.
:)thats all. idk why i smiled at the end