Growing up
You know I noticed that as I get older, and things change, and I get busier a lot of my past rituals and traditions have been slipping away. I used to have my own special observances for holidays and seasons and such. Now I'm lucky if I even notice a holiday. I remember how magical it was when the leaves changed in the fall, but now I don't even notice it and by the time I do it's like....meh. I totally slept through Palm Sunday this year, on which I used to get up to play Hosannah from JCSS on the computer. Then I'd go to church and end up acolyting. That's another thing, I used to be uber involved with my church and now I've just sort of dissapeared. I guess I'll have to manage my time better to actually take the time to notice these things. I suck at time management. I suck at organization too. And I procrastinate. My future is screwed. Honestly as of right now my future is completely open. I have no idea what direction I want to take my life in. Even if I did it wouldn't matter. I've been cornered by my grades. Why is it my life has to be decided by some letters that some boring stranger have deemed a good representitive of my intelligence? Growing up sucks.