Different
Things are good at home but some things are different. I really appreciate all of my friends at home, but its different. I've been home for 4 weeks now. The past week or so has sucked because I've been sleeping on the couch because I fucked up my shoulder some how. I'm on muscle relaxants and lots of ibuprophin. I haven't been very social for the past week because of that. I feel really bad cause I haven't seen Nate since I hurt my shoulder. But, hes sick, so I dunno. Everyone seems to forget my values and what I am all about. I realize that I did get drunk and smoke and shit at school, but what person in college didn't do that at one time or another? Seriously. I have to admit that college has changed me. I don't know of anyone who it does effect. Its a completely different experience. Being thrown into a world outside of your comfort zone. Its a lot different to go away from home too. I hate to admit the fact that its hard to forget about the experiences that I've had at school. Everyone at home keeps complaining that I talk about school alot. Quite frankly NAU is my life for at least the next three and a half years. I'm not going to come home until after I've graduated. I love Flagstaff, I love NAU and I'm sorry if that doesn't work for some people, but if you want to spend time with me, then either move to me, or wait till I have a break. I'm not giving up my education to move back home. Coming home for Christmas has really helped me realize that I chose the right place for me. I knew it would be hard, but it would be even harder to tear me away from experiences, the city, my friends, and the school that I love. I was talking to my dad about this stuff this morning and I don't think I have cried so hard in a while. Everything that has been bottled up inside me for the past month came rushing back and I couldn't stop crying. I miss having the comfort of home from 500 miles away. I'm a different person and I can't change that. I'm happy where I'm at. I made the right choice. I'm excited to go back to school. It's my home away from HOME.