i just keep crying.
I've been crying since last night. Joey got loaded and treated me like shit all night. Still, no apology. Not that it would matter if he said, he wouldn't mean it, but the least you can do is fucking fake it. He's had me crying since last night until this moment, which is the next day AND I'm at work. I'm so hurt. I think his insecurities have gotten to a point where he just can't handle it. I love him, but I don't want to be treated this way. I don't know what his problem is when he gets drunk. He goes into prick mode. I mean, I'm just tired of it. there's no excuse. I just, simply enough, want an apology, an admission of guilt and wrong doing. Admit that you got too fucked up and lost control of yourself. Admit that I don't deserrve that. Don't be schocked when I never go anywhere with you again. I'm fucking tired of it. All I did, was try to help him, try to stop him from going to jail, trying to deal with it all is just too much for me. I'm honestly not sure why I keep crying. I should be ok, I should be over it by now...I know I still love him, but, what the fucking point in loving him if he's just going to get fucked up and act like this. I mean, it's not aLL of the time, but either way, he can't apologize?! he IS wrong, and to think, he has the audacity to think that I am wrong. How could I possibly be wrong? He didn't want to talk about it last night because he knew that I would tell him to get the fuck out. Now, here we are, the next day, and I have no closure. I just want to go home. I want to go to my mom's and lay down or go home and talk to joey and either reach a conclusion or kick him the fuck out. =/