We'll see what I think of this a year from now

[ignoramus]

This is a proclamation of sorts. While I don't really feel like this is absolutely necessary, I know a lot of people who might want explanations, as I feel as though I've become somewhat of an enigma to a lot of old friends

Comments

[princessdulla]

My best friend and erstwhile roommate was diagnosed with bipolar disorder shortly after she and I participated in some of the most manic and self-destructive behavior of my entire life... and then I rode with her on the inevitable crash afterwards. She and I lived together through some really tough stuff... like, Lifetime Movie kind of tough... which only exacerbated things. She went on the meds, and evened out... but still struggles with using them from time to time. She's an actress, and they can be counterproductive to trying to play a scene, so she occasionally goes off them for a show... which can lead to interesting results. All in all, though, she is functioning incredibly well.

I wish you the best of luck, sincerely. I've been with someone else through a similar struggle, and sometimes just giving the problem a name is enough to make you feel like you own it... and you can control it. It is very difficult to fight the inclinations of one's own mind, however, even when they are rationally incoherent. And the meds tend to just dull everything.

You will be fine though. There's an inner strength in you that will allow for nothing less. I have faith in you.

[ignoramus]

Sorry, I forgot I had comments on this one.

First of all, thank you so much.

Secondly, I hope I get to see you sometime over break!

[princessdulla]

Most definitely. I would love to see you. How long are you at home? I get back today (Dec 22) and will be around until January 21... although Jan 7-14 I'll be in the Twin Cities.

Maybe I should ask you via Facebook. Hmm. I wonder what you will check first.

I turn 21 on Jan. 6. Will you be around?