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what is up people... life sucks! w00t. as usual. everythings all emo. i dont think i want to be with anyone for a while.. i want to be by myself.. i need to totally become antisocial this summer. people suck. no one understands me but the people i hold dear. which is so few i can count on one hand. *thinks.....yeah.. one hand* but yeah w.e im just being blah right now because thats how everything is now.. my days go by slow as fuck... but i dont even notice them anymore. "i watch the world from a distance and let everything pass by" ericka. sux about our anniversary that we couldnt talk or see each other... being at sunset felt weird without you. i went to the spot we took that pic. very emo. mm hmm. i smile very few times but its usually when i see ericka. shes beautiful. =) <3 today i skippizled in 2nd period.. i didnt want to go to the class and take shit from schneider grrr i just want to do the finals and leave... *grawr* last three days im not coming to school. so to all you people im out on friday. im so scared of the summer... cuz i mean i barely talk to ericka now. and i see her everyday. im not trying to be greedy or anything but i just wish i could talk to her more then i do now. im pretty sure someone this is directed to will understand an hour or so a day isnt enough. not with a girl like her anyways. w.e i hope i can talk to her during the summer. ima work an extra couple of days before she leaves to cali and give her money to buy phone cards.. that way she can call me. ima miss you ericka. so damn much. i hope during the summer i will be able to see you. i think its bullshit how ur family is reacting.. how my family is reacting.. fuck that i love you no one can stop that. ever. you hear that.... E V E R !!!!! *grawr* i hate people who think they can change our love for each other... *grawr* damn.. every time i think ima write a short LJ i end up writing an essay..... KIKI i miss you a lot... where are you???? =\ ima call u soon. i want to get to know u and we havent talked for too long lol. =) <3... cary ur sweet ok? we will always be close.. u understand me more then most people... get ready cuz ur about to be a big part of me.. =) maybe as a friend maybe as sumthin else. i dont know. ur coolios. <3