my day today...
well i went to work... work went by fast as hell... good day really... easy DT work and sum DR cleaning. thats it. sucks though.. being like paranoid all day about what ur ex girlfriend might be doing at that very instant... hurts like shit... so w.e i convinced my parents to let me go to a party.... after what happend last night at midnight i thought ide never see the light of day... because see.. once again ericka i fought my whole family for you.. got the beating of my life.. but what is worse. i hit my pops back. it was fucking horrible... i cried and i screamed and shit.. im scared now... because for like those few fleeting moments last night i was back to crazy "i wanna die" omar... my mom thought i went crazy again... because i was screaming my lungs out into the pillow and almost suffocated myself w.e... i apologized and we talked a lot and figured what we both did was stupid... so our anger for each other is at a standby. ericka. dont bother calling me tonight. if u wanna talk to me.. monday will have to do i guess.. maybe u'll catch me at home... but i suggest u dont call me a lot. once maybe. try to *67 before u call too. w.e thank god i can go to the party... lol ide hate having to stay home and wait for someone who also doesnt have a life to call me. ericka i hope you are having a lot of fun... i hope this is all worth it... i love you, you know i do. ill always want to be with you, so just sit my ass down and talk to me if ur ever single again. <3 u. always. yessie if u even read my LJ... sorry i couldnt be here tonight love, =\ ill miss you always. ur my little chinese girl! ;P hahahaha call me up tommorow after i get off work if ya can. *muah* well im off.. my brother is hurrying me up. later peepz. love you all