Ball and Chain...
GODDAMMIT!!! I FUCKING HATE THIS. Most people here will think I'm getting what I deserve, and maybe I am. For the first time in a long time...I care about someone who doesn't give a shit about me: Omar. I swear I can't take this anymore. I just keep sinking deeper and deeper into this depression and pretty soon I won't be able to sink any deeper. It hurts me so much just to see him, to talk to him...because I know he doesn't care. I can't even put into words how I feel. I just feel like dying. I wish I could. I know nothing will ever be the same again. After his stay in the hospital he changed..he stopped caring and he admits it. As hard as I try, nothing will be the way it used to be. I guess we had a good run. I just wish I knew how to stop caring. I wish i knew how to stop feeling. I just got an idea....