Don't waste your whole life trying to get back what was taken away
Wow, it really has been a long time since I posted. I've just been so so busy...I've barely had a moment to myself. I don't even know where to begin.
I guess I can start by finishing some emo junk that has been plaguing my blog for months and months. While the names will always be changed to protect the innocent, I can safely report that every one of the friends that I was missing or trying to get back on track with all decided to go away from me by deed or neglect . It hurt badly; some cases I deserved it and others I really didn't, but it's okay. I mean it still hurts and I guess it always will...but I have plenty of people in my life that will always care about me and I can cherish the good memories I have with my lost friends. Hopefully they are well and have a wonderful life. I hope they remember me (which is at it's core narcissistic, but hey).
I've been trying to reconnect with friends I talked to a while ago. It's sad we've drifted. My core friends are still here and for that I am endlessly thankful. Everyone is just so busy; I miss a lot of them. School is almost over! It's been super hard and I swear to God it was close to giving me gray hair, but it was so worth it. I'm really happy that an additional bonus to grad school was that I found another close friend that I look forward to having for years. I sadly didn't get into any of the PhD programs I applied for...but it's ok. I think I applied to the wrong places and they didn't have much for me (self-delusion). I plan on applying again to better schools next year and I really think that all the work I'm doing will
help a lot.
San Antonio's conference was amazing. It was a great learning experience, both personally and professionally. I had a moment of clarity after I was really hurt and that put things into perspective. It still hurts though, but it'll get easier. Professionally, this conference really cemented that this is what I want to do with my life. I actually became excited about my job and am feeling comfortable with what I know and what I have yet to learn.
I was offered a job as a psychological therapist in ....Mass..... I really can' wait to start. I might actually start to believe I'm a professional (fake it till you make it right?).
I've been training in a new martial art system that's heavily tactical...similar to Krav Mag. Kopec is teaching it and I think I'm lucky. I love it, and I love the support I have from my home school. I really feel that Shihan, Ric and Andy are my friends as well as my colleagues.
I've put on about seventeen pounds. Some of it's muscle...but not all and that
little bit is such a bastard to get rid of. I'm training for a triathlon that I'm going to do with my dad in august. Should be super sweet.
It feels amazing to be loved the way I am and I'm incredibly luck (herro).
I guess that's all...and I'm certain I'm missing something. I'll try to remember. I mean, who knows how long it'll be till I post again. Many of my recently lost friends where faithful readers. Whose even reading this? Aliens in the future I guess. Until next time.
I guess I can start by finishing some emo junk that has been plaguing my blog for months and months. While the names will always be changed to protect the innocent, I can safely report that every one of the friends that I was missing or trying to get back on track with all decided to go away from me by deed or neglect . It hurt badly; some cases I deserved it and others I really didn't, but it's okay. I mean it still hurts and I guess it always will...but I have plenty of people in my life that will always care about me and I can cherish the good memories I have with my lost friends. Hopefully they are well and have a wonderful life. I hope they remember me (which is at it's core narcissistic, but hey).
I've been trying to reconnect with friends I talked to a while ago. It's sad we've drifted. My core friends are still here and for that I am endlessly thankful. Everyone is just so busy; I miss a lot of them. School is almost over! It's been super hard and I swear to God it was close to giving me gray hair, but it was so worth it. I'm really happy that an additional bonus to grad school was that I found another close friend that I look forward to having for years. I sadly didn't get into any of the PhD programs I applied for...but it's ok. I think I applied to the wrong places and they didn't have much for me (self-delusion). I plan on applying again to better schools next year and I really think that all the work I'm doing will
help a lot.
San Antonio's conference was amazing. It was a great learning experience, both personally and professionally. I had a moment of clarity after I was really hurt and that put things into perspective. It still hurts though, but it'll get easier. Professionally, this conference really cemented that this is what I want to do with my life. I actually became excited about my job and am feeling comfortable with what I know and what I have yet to learn.
I was offered a job as a psychological therapist in ....Mass..... I really can' wait to start. I might actually start to believe I'm a professional (fake it till you make it right?).
I've been training in a new martial art system that's heavily tactical...similar to Krav Mag. Kopec is teaching it and I think I'm lucky. I love it, and I love the support I have from my home school. I really feel that Shihan, Ric and Andy are my friends as well as my colleagues.
I've put on about seventeen pounds. Some of it's muscle...but not all and that
little bit is such a bastard to get rid of. I'm training for a triathlon that I'm going to do with my dad in august. Should be super sweet.
It feels amazing to be loved the way I am and I'm incredibly luck (herro).
I guess that's all...and I'm certain I'm missing something. I'll try to remember. I mean, who knows how long it'll be till I post again. Many of my recently lost friends where faithful readers. Whose even reading this? Aliens in the future I guess. Until next time.