And if the sun comes up tomorrow, Let her be, let her be
Yes I am a complete loser and listen to Hootie and the Blowfish on occasion. Come on, it was the late 90s, this is my childhood here.
So it has been a real long while, or at least a couple of weeks since I've posted. It just feels like such a long while with somethings. School has been really crazy, but it's all done in a couple of weeks...then vacation. I'm totally looking forward to it, it will be awesome.
I think I saw Cristy walk by my house the other day. I really don't know how to feel about that, confusion at the least.
So Thanksgiving was pretty awesome. It was nice to see everyone. On Thanksgiving eve, I was a total loser and went to my high school football game. To be honest, I always loved going to those in JR high and High school (though I routed for the enemy because I was with my friends from the rival school!). I didn't get to go my senior year, which I remember totally sucking and being really really mad about it. I mean, it was my senior year!!! That was a good thanksgiving though, and I felt loved by people. In any case, this year I went to the ALumni prep rally and actually had a hell of a lot of fun! Basically, one of my favorite teachers was there and we totally got drunk on free alumni drinks and staggered over to the stadium. It was a lot of fun, I told him that his two psych courses are what got me to go with Psychology (I know...so lame) and we laughed it up. He's a great cat. We bumped into another favorite teacher and man it was awesome. I wanted to see Br. Good that week, but haven't been able to link up. He's on the facebook now...so it should be easier.
Before thanksgiving, I received a call the exact day I needed it and I was so happy.
Sadly, after much investigation, I've determined that it is impossible to reach Jessica Huber. My only lead that I've found since summer hasn't spoken to her in five years and has no way to reach her. I guess it's really up to fate now. I'm pretty sad about it, particularly out of guilt. I guess we all make choices that lead us down different paths. Hey who knows, Crystal came back to us! Maybe there's hope.
I got to hang with my friend Holly this week! It was so damn awesome! I'm sad she's leavin to go back to Cali. Hopefully I'll see her when she's back again!!!!!!!!
It's winter!!! Well, not really, but I love it. I love the cold. The stars were beautiful last night! It snowed too! I love it! I need more snow!
Out of the blue, I got in a really upsetting fight with a dear friend of mine last night. it's really made me upset today. I've been having the disconnected feeling that comes when I'm very upset...it's really bothering me. I hope she realizes the value of what I've been saying and myself in general. Eh, this is a real terrible feeling.
Today I had my 2nd degree black belt test. It was incredible. It was very diffucult, but really only because I've been so sick with this mono relapse (oh yeah, by the way I've had a mono relapse) and the cardio was killing me. They also dropped left handed techniques on us and I wasn't prepared at all, which of course is my own fault. But I think I did a great job and didn't let Shihan down. Hanshi told me that he was very impressed with my kicks and actually wanted me to do a form for him, which is like God telling you you're awesome. It was kind of sad though, particularly thinking about Dan. But hey, that's life. I really felt like I had some people thinking about me today and that made things better (thanks, Becs, Phatz, J...and everyone else that sent me positive energy). I know people would have been there if they could have been. And, with all the focus I needed for the test...I couldn't think about how upset I was. Now, I'm just too tired to.
Tomorrow is going to suck.
So it has been a real long while, or at least a couple of weeks since I've posted. It just feels like such a long while with somethings. School has been really crazy, but it's all done in a couple of weeks...then vacation. I'm totally looking forward to it, it will be awesome.
I think I saw Cristy walk by my house the other day. I really don't know how to feel about that, confusion at the least.
So Thanksgiving was pretty awesome. It was nice to see everyone. On Thanksgiving eve, I was a total loser and went to my high school football game. To be honest, I always loved going to those in JR high and High school (though I routed for the enemy because I was with my friends from the rival school!). I didn't get to go my senior year, which I remember totally sucking and being really really mad about it. I mean, it was my senior year!!! That was a good thanksgiving though, and I felt loved by people. In any case, this year I went to the ALumni prep rally and actually had a hell of a lot of fun! Basically, one of my favorite teachers was there and we totally got drunk on free alumni drinks and staggered over to the stadium. It was a lot of fun, I told him that his two psych courses are what got me to go with Psychology (I know...so lame) and we laughed it up. He's a great cat. We bumped into another favorite teacher and man it was awesome. I wanted to see Br. Good that week, but haven't been able to link up. He's on the facebook now...so it should be easier.
Before thanksgiving, I received a call the exact day I needed it and I was so happy.
Sadly, after much investigation, I've determined that it is impossible to reach Jessica Huber. My only lead that I've found since summer hasn't spoken to her in five years and has no way to reach her. I guess it's really up to fate now. I'm pretty sad about it, particularly out of guilt. I guess we all make choices that lead us down different paths. Hey who knows, Crystal came back to us! Maybe there's hope.
I got to hang with my friend Holly this week! It was so damn awesome! I'm sad she's leavin to go back to Cali. Hopefully I'll see her when she's back again!!!!!!!!
It's winter!!! Well, not really, but I love it. I love the cold. The stars were beautiful last night! It snowed too! I love it! I need more snow!
Out of the blue, I got in a really upsetting fight with a dear friend of mine last night. it's really made me upset today. I've been having the disconnected feeling that comes when I'm very upset...it's really bothering me. I hope she realizes the value of what I've been saying and myself in general. Eh, this is a real terrible feeling.
Today I had my 2nd degree black belt test. It was incredible. It was very diffucult, but really only because I've been so sick with this mono relapse (oh yeah, by the way I've had a mono relapse) and the cardio was killing me. They also dropped left handed techniques on us and I wasn't prepared at all, which of course is my own fault. But I think I did a great job and didn't let Shihan down. Hanshi told me that he was very impressed with my kicks and actually wanted me to do a form for him, which is like God telling you you're awesome. It was kind of sad though, particularly thinking about Dan. But hey, that's life. I really felt like I had some people thinking about me today and that made things better (thanks, Becs, Phatz, J...and everyone else that sent me positive energy). I know people would have been there if they could have been. And, with all the focus I needed for the test...I couldn't think about how upset I was. Now, I'm just too tired to.
Tomorrow is going to suck.