Personality Creation
I encountered a moment that stopped me at full force. I couldn't do anything but ponder what I had heard. "I found myself falling into the quirky me and I thought, 'No, I'm mellow now.'"
So, why did this bother me? Due to the knowledge of knowing who you are to the extent that you recognize who you are, when you are that person, and to stop being that person, I was very impressed.
I go through life with a simple outlook as to me. I don't think about it, I just act without thought as to who I am. I figure I'll just be what I'll be and whatever it is, it just will be.
So the contrast forced me to stop.
We make legitimate decisions as to who we are to the world. And so what? What am I bothering to express here?
Nothing. It just is the way it is. It doesn't matter. 'You are what you pretend to be' is a Kurt Vonnegut saying. If you were an evil person at heart but pretended to nice to everyone, you -are- being nice to everyone. It doesn't matter what you are inside because you are to others your facade.
Why bother making that extra effort to like someone? You do or you do not. There is no point in trying so hard. There is no point in trying to find what someone is inside. In the end, you only know the person for what they let you know of them.
So, I guess I am bothered because I feel as though I might be manipulated by someone fully admitting to trying to be something. But so what. Everyone does that to everyone, just slightly more covertly.
So I end up where I started. Maybe less bothered.
So, why did this bother me? Due to the knowledge of knowing who you are to the extent that you recognize who you are, when you are that person, and to stop being that person, I was very impressed.
I go through life with a simple outlook as to me. I don't think about it, I just act without thought as to who I am. I figure I'll just be what I'll be and whatever it is, it just will be.
So the contrast forced me to stop.
We make legitimate decisions as to who we are to the world. And so what? What am I bothering to express here?
Nothing. It just is the way it is. It doesn't matter. 'You are what you pretend to be' is a Kurt Vonnegut saying. If you were an evil person at heart but pretended to nice to everyone, you -are- being nice to everyone. It doesn't matter what you are inside because you are to others your facade.
Why bother making that extra effort to like someone? You do or you do not. There is no point in trying so hard. There is no point in trying to find what someone is inside. In the end, you only know the person for what they let you know of them.
So, I guess I am bothered because I feel as though I might be manipulated by someone fully admitting to trying to be something. But so what. Everyone does that to everyone, just slightly more covertly.
So I end up where I started. Maybe less bothered.