Roleplay Confessions Collection: Midsummer Night's Dream (Part Two)
A/N: What can I say besides this would literally be the other half? It's like the other end of the spectrum of part one and for a different person. So, yeah~
i’m falling in love with the wrong person. or maybe i have never been in love with anyone at all. maybe i’ve just been confused this whole time and am left to question where i stand. what to do. how to feel. who to turn to. is it you i want? or do i not anymore after i’ve already had you? i’m not scared of commitment. i don’t think i ever have been. it’s more of the fact that bad milestones scare me. i don’t want us to fall apart at the hands of some unknown, uncontrollable force that leaves us separated and unable to find our way back. i need you here. life feels empty without you. but maybe you’re in the wrong place. maybe we’ve moved too fast. maybe we took a wrong turn. maybe we should have used a map and found some guidelines. or maybe i’m the only one that needed direction. i always do because i have no idea what i’m doing. i never do and it hurts to know just how badly the effect is for everyone else. how torturous my behavior is for everyone around me. and you’re the one in love. you state it so easily, as if it’s what keeps you alive. as if you need it like you’re next breath. i’m scared to say it because i don’t want to lie to you, but, if it’s the truth, what do i do? explain this to me. your heart is on the line and i’m letting it sway. you forgive me when you should hate me. or is it the love that’s keeping you here? is that why you can’t leave me? the hook is so deep in you that you’ve become the deer in headlights. there’s nowhere for you to turn. to run to. to escape to. to seek help from. i’m not even poison for you. i’m not deadly but i am your addiction. do i please you? do i make you happy? am i what runs through your veins? i don’t need to ask though because it’s all that you tell me. but i would still like to know just what it is that i do to you. why i do so much that hurts you and tears you down and brings tears to your eyes. you tell me when you cry because of how happy i’ve made you. be honest though. how often do you cry because of my words? my careless, carefree actions? my misplaced and misunderstood… well, everything? i like to fall asleep in your arms, lulled by the sound of your heartbeat. i like the love in your eyes and the warmth of your soul. you’re a good person. warming personality and i find myself steering away from it because i don’t know where my heart lies. what if it lies with someone else? if i’m not yours? i fear that i’m running, that i ran, because there are too many strings. you’re there to catch me if i fall. but i can barely leave the ground before you pull me back. i spill my heart to you and always get confused halfway. but so do you. what does this mean for us? where have we gone? did i fall out of love? did i ever love you? did i? please, just wipe my tears and tell me everything will be okay. tell me you won’t hate me if it turns out that i am in love with the person you feared already had my heart.
i’m falling in love with the wrong person. or maybe i have never been in love with anyone at all. maybe i’ve just been confused this whole time and am left to question where i stand. what to do. how to feel. who to turn to. is it you i want? or do i not anymore after i’ve already had you? i’m not scared of commitment. i don’t think i ever have been. it’s more of the fact that bad milestones scare me. i don’t want us to fall apart at the hands of some unknown, uncontrollable force that leaves us separated and unable to find our way back. i need you here. life feels empty without you. but maybe you’re in the wrong place. maybe we’ve moved too fast. maybe we took a wrong turn. maybe we should have used a map and found some guidelines. or maybe i’m the only one that needed direction. i always do because i have no idea what i’m doing. i never do and it hurts to know just how badly the effect is for everyone else. how torturous my behavior is for everyone around me. and you’re the one in love. you state it so easily, as if it’s what keeps you alive. as if you need it like you’re next breath. i’m scared to say it because i don’t want to lie to you, but, if it’s the truth, what do i do? explain this to me. your heart is on the line and i’m letting it sway. you forgive me when you should hate me. or is it the love that’s keeping you here? is that why you can’t leave me? the hook is so deep in you that you’ve become the deer in headlights. there’s nowhere for you to turn. to run to. to escape to. to seek help from. i’m not even poison for you. i’m not deadly but i am your addiction. do i please you? do i make you happy? am i what runs through your veins? i don’t need to ask though because it’s all that you tell me. but i would still like to know just what it is that i do to you. why i do so much that hurts you and tears you down and brings tears to your eyes. you tell me when you cry because of how happy i’ve made you. be honest though. how often do you cry because of my words? my careless, carefree actions? my misplaced and misunderstood… well, everything? i like to fall asleep in your arms, lulled by the sound of your heartbeat. i like the love in your eyes and the warmth of your soul. you’re a good person. warming personality and i find myself steering away from it because i don’t know where my heart lies. what if it lies with someone else? if i’m not yours? i fear that i’m running, that i ran, because there are too many strings. you’re there to catch me if i fall. but i can barely leave the ground before you pull me back. i spill my heart to you and always get confused halfway. but so do you. what does this mean for us? where have we gone? did i fall out of love? did i ever love you? did i? please, just wipe my tears and tell me everything will be okay. tell me you won’t hate me if it turns out that i am in love with the person you feared already had my heart.