Cry me a river
Money is the biggest problem in the whole entire freakin world. It splits apart families and friends. People are fuckin idiots about it. I hate not being able to explain anything to people who don't listen and make too many irrational decisions. These people yell and yell and yell and just don't understand anything at all. They twist words around and believe that everyone is out to get them. There are a lot of bad people in this world, but all of them are not against my parents and my family. Not all men rape girls. Not all business people lie. Nothing is free. Nothing is easy anymore.
I can remember back to when i was a child and i watched my dad give letters to my sister to read to him and explain to him the stuff inside. I always wondered how it would feel to be doing that and how much my sister did when I was little. I don't know how it was for her, but for me to explain anything to my parents is difficult. They don't listen. Well, at first they do and then when they start to get frustrated and angry, they just tune me out. It's even harder because I can't explain the phone bill and medical bills and other things to them. It's stress on me, but it's harder for them to not be able to understand the half english half chinese i speak. IT'S SO FUCKIN FRUSTRATING. i can barely handle it. I also remember what my sister and her friends said to me one day, they said, "You should try to have fun now, cause when you're our age, you're gonna wish you could go back." I nodded my head and said okay, but i didn't understand what they meant until recently. All these new problems and issues are just building up on my shoulders and i'm being weighed down. I don't know how much longer i can hold it.
I can remember back to when i was a child and i watched my dad give letters to my sister to read to him and explain to him the stuff inside. I always wondered how it would feel to be doing that and how much my sister did when I was little. I don't know how it was for her, but for me to explain anything to my parents is difficult. They don't listen. Well, at first they do and then when they start to get frustrated and angry, they just tune me out. It's even harder because I can't explain the phone bill and medical bills and other things to them. It's stress on me, but it's harder for them to not be able to understand the half english half chinese i speak. IT'S SO FUCKIN FRUSTRATING. i can barely handle it. I also remember what my sister and her friends said to me one day, they said, "You should try to have fun now, cause when you're our age, you're gonna wish you could go back." I nodded my head and said okay, but i didn't understand what they meant until recently. All these new problems and issues are just building up on my shoulders and i'm being weighed down. I don't know how much longer i can hold it.