Work Permanency Implication?
All throughout December, I was afraid of messing up. I damn near cried one night after my second month of training because I went from 25/25 to 22/30 and I was trying SO HARD to get my requisitions correct.
January comes along, I'm certain work wants to terminate me. Jay (H.R.) calls me into his office... and I'm shaking like a leaf. He tells me to sign the extended duration until May 30.
My contract was supposed to expire May 30. H.R. (Jay) called me in a week prior to assess my target and to tell me they didn't have enough funding for extended temp duration OR full time position. Jay offers part-time hours/days and I agree. He tells me "We don't know what will happen between now and June. For now, work on reaching your target, then we'll talk."
He has Alicia sit with me and I proceed to hit 240+ all throughout my "final" week. Jay calls me in on May 29 to show me the renewed contract for full-time hours until June. He says H.R. is trying to get approval/funding for more vacancies but "don't know what will happen between now and June."
April 1-5: Laurice subtly calls my attention to the job listings at work - there are two vacancies, seems they are both full-time. I make a mental note to apply but my target numbers still aren't at 250. Deadline shows April 8.
After April 5: I get so excited about hitting 250+ plus that I forget to apply, among all the other things that are packed into my schedule.
Around April 10: I recheck the website and notice H.R. has pulled both listings. I haven't heard anything about new candidates actually going through training.
April 18: Jay asks to speak with me briefly and pulls me out into the hall at 5:30.
Jay: Did you see the job listing?
Me: Job listing?
Jay: The vacancies. There were permanent ones.
Me: Oh! Those, yeah.
Jay: You didn't apply?
Me: No, I kind of forgot. I was trying to hit my targets and uh, it slipped my mind. I noticed they got pulled down shortly afterwards.
Jay: You weren't interested? I thought for sure you were going to apply for it...
Me: I was, actually.
Me: Wait. You were... wondering why I hadn't applied?
Jay: Yeah.
(awkward pause)
Me: So I could have...?? (trails off... oh god. jaw metaphorically drops.)
Jay: Tsk. I'll see if we can figure something out.
So on one hand, I didn't think (back at the time) my numbers warranted applying for the full-time role. When I implied to Jay that I was interested in staying on and aiming for permanency, his answer was to say he didn't know what was going to happen, he advised me that I'd have to interview all over again, and that he wanted me to focus on my target numbers: "We'll see what happens in two months and talk."
Yet, he pulls me out of the lab to ask why I hadn't applied... which makes me think they would have considered interviewing me for a permanent position. I don't know whether to feel stupid for unintentionally passing this up, or to feel happy I could have given this a shot/be considered!
All those months of training and this progress... but I seriously didn't think they'd consider me on board permanently.
Like if I had gone for the interview and they told me they wanted to keep me on board for permanency, I probably would have cried after work. And then sent an e-mail to my parents.
I don't know what's going to happen now. I don't know if he can rectify this.
January comes along, I'm certain work wants to terminate me. Jay (H.R.) calls me into his office... and I'm shaking like a leaf. He tells me to sign the extended duration until May 30.
My contract was supposed to expire May 30. H.R. (Jay) called me in a week prior to assess my target and to tell me they didn't have enough funding for extended temp duration OR full time position. Jay offers part-time hours/days and I agree. He tells me "We don't know what will happen between now and June. For now, work on reaching your target, then we'll talk."
He has Alicia sit with me and I proceed to hit 240+ all throughout my "final" week. Jay calls me in on May 29 to show me the renewed contract for full-time hours until June. He says H.R. is trying to get approval/funding for more vacancies but "don't know what will happen between now and June."
April 1-5: Laurice subtly calls my attention to the job listings at work - there are two vacancies, seems they are both full-time. I make a mental note to apply but my target numbers still aren't at 250. Deadline shows April 8.
After April 5: I get so excited about hitting 250+ plus that I forget to apply, among all the other things that are packed into my schedule.
Around April 10: I recheck the website and notice H.R. has pulled both listings. I haven't heard anything about new candidates actually going through training.
April 18: Jay asks to speak with me briefly and pulls me out into the hall at 5:30.
Jay: Did you see the job listing?
Me: Job listing?
Jay: The vacancies. There were permanent ones.
Me: Oh! Those, yeah.
Jay: You didn't apply?
Me: No, I kind of forgot. I was trying to hit my targets and uh, it slipped my mind. I noticed they got pulled down shortly afterwards.
Jay: You weren't interested? I thought for sure you were going to apply for it...
Me: I was, actually.
Me: Wait. You were... wondering why I hadn't applied?
Jay: Yeah.
(awkward pause)
Me: So I could have...?? (trails off... oh god. jaw metaphorically drops.)
Jay: Tsk. I'll see if we can figure something out.
So on one hand, I didn't think (back at the time) my numbers warranted applying for the full-time role. When I implied to Jay that I was interested in staying on and aiming for permanency, his answer was to say he didn't know what was going to happen, he advised me that I'd have to interview all over again, and that he wanted me to focus on my target numbers: "We'll see what happens in two months and talk."
Yet, he pulls me out of the lab to ask why I hadn't applied... which makes me think they would have considered interviewing me for a permanent position. I don't know whether to feel stupid for unintentionally passing this up, or to feel happy I could have given this a shot/be considered!
All those months of training and this progress... but I seriously didn't think they'd consider me on board permanently.
Like if I had gone for the interview and they told me they wanted to keep me on board for permanency, I probably would have cried after work. And then sent an e-mail to my parents.
I don't know what's going to happen now. I don't know if he can rectify this.