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revisiting things:
tonight i got a fortune in a cookie that says "go ahead and be as sexy as you can."
never gotten one like that. however, i am just letting it sit on the counter as i play on the back porch with my dog who sat around too much today, drink a glass of wine before i fall asleep watching "be here to love me" and study a map to plan my next road trip.
seattle treated me well. i fell for the green trees, and winding roads. people too, there were good people.
i keep asking myself when we get to try to be light hearted and easy going, and not be so scared. it seems like it is the choice between reserved and careless, and i'm neither of those. black or white, no grey. i'm not sure that this house and place is where i want to be. i'm not sure about any place really, and that's what i've been lookin for. getting closer with every drive, every mile, every photo taken of a new landscape. the air feels different. an empty bed feels different. and it really is all the same in the end. i have no direction to write in. i have a less creative mind. so forgive me friends for the lost words.