I'll Win Your Heart! (9/25)
Pairings: KyuMin
Raiting: G (I think...)
Genre: Romance; Angst (a bit at some points of story)
Summary: Kyuhyun transfers to new school, to be closer to his best friend Yesung, but there he meets Sungmin, who is ready to do anything to win Kyuhyun's heart, although Kyuhyun doesn't want relationship, how long will he be able to resist Sungmin!?
Kyuhyun sat in school garden with Yesung, who was back to school, although he looked really pale and doctor tried to convince him to stay home and rest, Yesung had insisted that he wants to go to school. At first Kyuhyun also attempted to talk Yesung into staying home, but Yesung gave him his puppy eyes and furiously shook his head, Kyuhyun could only sigh and let him attend school, he really didn't want to make his hyung even more unhappy, so if attending school for some reasons made him at least a little bit happy, Kyuhyun just couldn't bring himself to force Yesung stay home.
But there was also something else that bothered him, he couldn't get Sungmin out of his head. He kept remembering their kiss and still couldn't understand why he kissed back, why he was so helpless in Sungmin's arms. Yesung apparently noticed that something is bothering Kyuhyun 'cause he started to poke Kyuhyun's cheek with his finger, Kyuhyun knew that it's a sign that Yesung wants him to talk.
He sighed and looked at Yesung, he really didn’t want to bother later with his problems, but Yesung took Kyuhyun's hands in his and looked at him with questioning eyes and Kyuhyun understood that he isn't going to just let it go.
"It's about Sungmin" - Kyuhyun started, and Yesung nodded encouraging Kyuhyun to continue.
Kyuhyun thought how to tell it to Yesung, 'cause he couldn't tell him, that Sungmin approached him when he was crying, so he decided he will skip that part and tell just about walk home and kiss.
"Well, yesterday he offered to walk me home, and I kind of agreed 'cause...'cause...well he insisted" - Kyuhyun felt bad for lying to Yesung, but he really couldn't tell real reason, so he just hopped that Yesung didn't notice anything and continued - "At first we were just walking, but then he took my hand, and well we just kept going holding hands. We didn't really have anything to talk about so we just walked in silence. And when we were in front of my apartment, he still held my hand, and... and before I knew he... he was kissing me, I thought that it's going to be short kiss just like that other time, but he didn't stop and he was holding me close and well I sort of, kind of started to kiss him back. And I don't know why I did that? It's not that I like him or anything. Hyung, I'm so confused." - Kyuhyun ended his story and looked at Yesung who seemed to be in deep thoughts.
Yesung took his bag and looked for something in it, Kyuhyun knew that he's searching for a pen and paper. Soon Yesung found them and started to write, Kyuhyun waited till he finishes.
After writing what he wanted to say Yesung gave paper to Kyuhyun. Kyuhyun started to read what other wrote:
"Why don't you just admit that you do like him?
I know sometimes at first it's not easy to admit that you have feelings for someone, not even to yourself.
But Kyuhyun love is something beautiful, although yes it can hurt you badly, you shouldn't be afraid to love someone. It's wonderful feeling to love and be loved back, don't think about what might happen or how it could end, instead enjoy it while you can, so that later you wouldn't have to regret anything.
And Sungmin looks like someone who really could make you happy, he already proved that he really likes you. He stays by your side even when you push him away, and that means much. You should give him a chance.
You know that soon I won't be here for you, but I want to die knowing that you are happy, that you have someone who will take care of you."
"I'm scared hyung, what if he leaves me too, I don't think I'll be able to take another loss" - Kyuhyun said.
"But what if he doesn't leave you, what if he can make you truly happy and you miss that chance 'cause of your fear?" - Yesung wrote.
"Then I won't even know about it, I can't miss something I've never had. Wouldn't you be happier if you'd never met Ryeowook? Then now you wouldn't suffer." - Kyuhyun said and just then realized what he had said, he saw that Yesung's face got gloomy and he unintentionally clenched his fist.
"I'm so sorry hyung, I shouldn't have said that, I shouldn't have mention him" - Kyuhyun apologized.
For a moment Yesung was silent, but then he looked at Kyuhyun with really sad eyes, Kyuhyun could see pain in them and his heart sank, he regretted that he had mentioned Ryeowook.
But Yesung started to write again:
"No I wouldn't, I'd be even more unhappy person now, if I hadn't met him.
I've never regretted loving Wookie, not even a second, although it's true - he gave me most painful memories in my life, but he also gave me most beautiful ones.
And I admit at first I really did hate him, I was mad at him for leaving me, for breaking his promise and my heart.
And it still hurts - every time I remember that day - I can't even breath, it hurts so much that I can almost feel physical pain. But still my heart belongs to Wookie, and I've never regetted giving it to him.
I think, that maybe it had to be this way, so that he wouldn't suffer, I know he loved me, and he pretended to be strong, but we both know that if he would have stayed with me till the end, if he would have to see me dying - it would have destroyed him.
So Kyuhyun, please don't hate him. You can't blame Wookie for what happened, so don't hurt yourself hating your brother."
Kyuhyun read what Yesung wrote and he couldn't stop himself from crying, for so many reasons - he hadn't heard nickname Wookie for so long, 'cause Ryeowook let only Yesung call him like that, everyone else would have get their asses kicked, if they called him Wookie. It reminded Kyuhyun how happy they all used to be.
He also cried 'cause he blamed Ryeowook for something that wasn't his fault, he always had had good relationship with brother, and no matter how much he wouldn't want to admit that, he actually hated Ryeowook not so much for leaving Yesung, but for leaving him. Truth was he really missed his brother. And he wished that instead of all those time they had arguments and they said some mean things to each other, he would have hugged him and said how much he loved him, how important Ryeowook was to him.
And he cried 'cause he didn't want Yesung to die, he didn't want to lose his best friend, he knew Yesung for so many years and they were like brothers, Yesung always was the first one Kyuhyun approached when he had problems or worries. To whom he will go if Yesung won't be here for him, he didn't have other friends.
Yesung hugged Kyuhyun tightly and placed gentle kiss on his forehead, Kyuhyun let him knowing that this could be one of the last hugs and kisses he'll ever get from his hyung.
They stayed like that for a while, Kyuhyun silently crying in Yesung's arms, and Yesung desperately holding back his tears, he really didn't want to cry in front of Kyuhyun, he wanted to be strong for his dongsaeng, to support him while he still could.
When Kyuhyun calmed down he started to talk - "I’m sorry, hyung, for mentioning Ryeowook and for starting to cry like a baby."
Yesung took his notebook and pen again and started to write:
"You have nothing to be sorry about. And you don’t have to always try to be strong in front of me, I know you’re hurt too, so don’t always just think about me. I should be the one taking care of you, but somehow it's the other way around, so I should be the one to say sorry for being such a bad hyung to you. "
"Pabo, you’re the best hyung in the world" - Kyuhyun said and hugged Yesung again - "I’ll really miss you" - he added sadly.
Kyuhyun saw that Yesung wrote Sorry and chuckled - "Pabo, you really have nothing to be sorry about."
They continued to sit silently - Kyuhyun resting his head on Yesung’s shoulder and holding hands.
After a while Yesung started to write something, Kyuhyun looked what he wrote still keeping his head on Yesung’s shoulder:
"What did you decide about Sungmin? Will you give him a chance? "
"I don’t know hyung" - Kyuhyun sighed - "Honestly I think I might kind of like him, but it’s just ‘cause he’s really nice to me. But I don’t think I’m ready to be in a relationship, not now. "
Yesung thought for a moment and then wrote:
"You could be just friends too. I bet Sungmin would agree. "
"I don’t think I’m ready to make friends too. You always have been my only friend and I don’t want other friends" - Kyuhyun said and he knew that he’s just looking for excuses to not let Sungmin in his life - "I think it’s better if I’m alone."
Yesung sighed before writing:
"You can’t be alone forever. And sooner or later you’ll understand that, I just hope that by then it won’t be already too late.
I think Sungmin is in love with you. I know how people look to the ones they love and that’s exactly how Sungmin look at you.
But everyone’s patience has its limits. So don’t make mistakes that you will later regret."
Kyuhyun tought for a moment - "Maybe I should at least try to get to know him better, before making assumptions and rejecting him" - Kyuhyun said and Yesung nodded approving of his decision.
"Thank you hyung, talking with you really helped me" - Kyuhyun said and snuggled closer to Yesung - "Would you mind is I sleep a little, there’s still plenty of time till next class and I feel tired."
Yesung shook his head showing that he doesn't mind and pointed to his lap to let Kyuhyun know that he can sleep there to be more comfortable. Kyuhyun saw it and lay down on the grass putting his head on Yesung’s lap, he again took one of Yesung’s hands and intertwined their fingers, he felt that Yesung started to gently stroke his hair before drifting off to sleep.
Raiting: G (I think...)
Genre: Romance; Angst (a bit at some points of story)
Summary: Kyuhyun transfers to new school, to be closer to his best friend Yesung, but there he meets Sungmin, who is ready to do anything to win Kyuhyun's heart, although Kyuhyun doesn't want relationship, how long will he be able to resist Sungmin!?
Kyuhyun sat in school garden with Yesung, who was back to school, although he looked really pale and doctor tried to convince him to stay home and rest, Yesung had insisted that he wants to go to school. At first Kyuhyun also attempted to talk Yesung into staying home, but Yesung gave him his puppy eyes and furiously shook his head, Kyuhyun could only sigh and let him attend school, he really didn't want to make his hyung even more unhappy, so if attending school for some reasons made him at least a little bit happy, Kyuhyun just couldn't bring himself to force Yesung stay home.
But there was also something else that bothered him, he couldn't get Sungmin out of his head. He kept remembering their kiss and still couldn't understand why he kissed back, why he was so helpless in Sungmin's arms. Yesung apparently noticed that something is bothering Kyuhyun 'cause he started to poke Kyuhyun's cheek with his finger, Kyuhyun knew that it's a sign that Yesung wants him to talk.
He sighed and looked at Yesung, he really didn’t want to bother later with his problems, but Yesung took Kyuhyun's hands in his and looked at him with questioning eyes and Kyuhyun understood that he isn't going to just let it go.
"It's about Sungmin" - Kyuhyun started, and Yesung nodded encouraging Kyuhyun to continue.
Kyuhyun thought how to tell it to Yesung, 'cause he couldn't tell him, that Sungmin approached him when he was crying, so he decided he will skip that part and tell just about walk home and kiss.
"Well, yesterday he offered to walk me home, and I kind of agreed 'cause...'cause...well he insisted" - Kyuhyun felt bad for lying to Yesung, but he really couldn't tell real reason, so he just hopped that Yesung didn't notice anything and continued - "At first we were just walking, but then he took my hand, and well we just kept going holding hands. We didn't really have anything to talk about so we just walked in silence. And when we were in front of my apartment, he still held my hand, and... and before I knew he... he was kissing me, I thought that it's going to be short kiss just like that other time, but he didn't stop and he was holding me close and well I sort of, kind of started to kiss him back. And I don't know why I did that? It's not that I like him or anything. Hyung, I'm so confused." - Kyuhyun ended his story and looked at Yesung who seemed to be in deep thoughts.
Yesung took his bag and looked for something in it, Kyuhyun knew that he's searching for a pen and paper. Soon Yesung found them and started to write, Kyuhyun waited till he finishes.
After writing what he wanted to say Yesung gave paper to Kyuhyun. Kyuhyun started to read what other wrote:
"Why don't you just admit that you do like him?
I know sometimes at first it's not easy to admit that you have feelings for someone, not even to yourself.
But Kyuhyun love is something beautiful, although yes it can hurt you badly, you shouldn't be afraid to love someone. It's wonderful feeling to love and be loved back, don't think about what might happen or how it could end, instead enjoy it while you can, so that later you wouldn't have to regret anything.
And Sungmin looks like someone who really could make you happy, he already proved that he really likes you. He stays by your side even when you push him away, and that means much. You should give him a chance.
You know that soon I won't be here for you, but I want to die knowing that you are happy, that you have someone who will take care of you."
"I'm scared hyung, what if he leaves me too, I don't think I'll be able to take another loss" - Kyuhyun said.
"But what if he doesn't leave you, what if he can make you truly happy and you miss that chance 'cause of your fear?" - Yesung wrote.
"Then I won't even know about it, I can't miss something I've never had. Wouldn't you be happier if you'd never met Ryeowook? Then now you wouldn't suffer." - Kyuhyun said and just then realized what he had said, he saw that Yesung's face got gloomy and he unintentionally clenched his fist.
"I'm so sorry hyung, I shouldn't have said that, I shouldn't have mention him" - Kyuhyun apologized.
For a moment Yesung was silent, but then he looked at Kyuhyun with really sad eyes, Kyuhyun could see pain in them and his heart sank, he regretted that he had mentioned Ryeowook.
But Yesung started to write again:
"No I wouldn't, I'd be even more unhappy person now, if I hadn't met him.
I've never regretted loving Wookie, not even a second, although it's true - he gave me most painful memories in my life, but he also gave me most beautiful ones.
And I admit at first I really did hate him, I was mad at him for leaving me, for breaking his promise and my heart.
And it still hurts - every time I remember that day - I can't even breath, it hurts so much that I can almost feel physical pain. But still my heart belongs to Wookie, and I've never regetted giving it to him.
I think, that maybe it had to be this way, so that he wouldn't suffer, I know he loved me, and he pretended to be strong, but we both know that if he would have stayed with me till the end, if he would have to see me dying - it would have destroyed him.
So Kyuhyun, please don't hate him. You can't blame Wookie for what happened, so don't hurt yourself hating your brother."
Kyuhyun read what Yesung wrote and he couldn't stop himself from crying, for so many reasons - he hadn't heard nickname Wookie for so long, 'cause Ryeowook let only Yesung call him like that, everyone else would have get their asses kicked, if they called him Wookie. It reminded Kyuhyun how happy they all used to be.
He also cried 'cause he blamed Ryeowook for something that wasn't his fault, he always had had good relationship with brother, and no matter how much he wouldn't want to admit that, he actually hated Ryeowook not so much for leaving Yesung, but for leaving him. Truth was he really missed his brother. And he wished that instead of all those time they had arguments and they said some mean things to each other, he would have hugged him and said how much he loved him, how important Ryeowook was to him.
And he cried 'cause he didn't want Yesung to die, he didn't want to lose his best friend, he knew Yesung for so many years and they were like brothers, Yesung always was the first one Kyuhyun approached when he had problems or worries. To whom he will go if Yesung won't be here for him, he didn't have other friends.
Yesung hugged Kyuhyun tightly and placed gentle kiss on his forehead, Kyuhyun let him knowing that this could be one of the last hugs and kisses he'll ever get from his hyung.
They stayed like that for a while, Kyuhyun silently crying in Yesung's arms, and Yesung desperately holding back his tears, he really didn't want to cry in front of Kyuhyun, he wanted to be strong for his dongsaeng, to support him while he still could.
When Kyuhyun calmed down he started to talk - "I’m sorry, hyung, for mentioning Ryeowook and for starting to cry like a baby."
Yesung took his notebook and pen again and started to write:
"You have nothing to be sorry about. And you don’t have to always try to be strong in front of me, I know you’re hurt too, so don’t always just think about me. I should be the one taking care of you, but somehow it's the other way around, so I should be the one to say sorry for being such a bad hyung to you. "
"Pabo, you’re the best hyung in the world" - Kyuhyun said and hugged Yesung again - "I’ll really miss you" - he added sadly.
Kyuhyun saw that Yesung wrote Sorry and chuckled - "Pabo, you really have nothing to be sorry about."
They continued to sit silently - Kyuhyun resting his head on Yesung’s shoulder and holding hands.
After a while Yesung started to write something, Kyuhyun looked what he wrote still keeping his head on Yesung’s shoulder:
"What did you decide about Sungmin? Will you give him a chance? "
"I don’t know hyung" - Kyuhyun sighed - "Honestly I think I might kind of like him, but it’s just ‘cause he’s really nice to me. But I don’t think I’m ready to be in a relationship, not now. "
Yesung thought for a moment and then wrote:
"You could be just friends too. I bet Sungmin would agree. "
"I don’t think I’m ready to make friends too. You always have been my only friend and I don’t want other friends" - Kyuhyun said and he knew that he’s just looking for excuses to not let Sungmin in his life - "I think it’s better if I’m alone."
Yesung sighed before writing:
"You can’t be alone forever. And sooner or later you’ll understand that, I just hope that by then it won’t be already too late.
I think Sungmin is in love with you. I know how people look to the ones they love and that’s exactly how Sungmin look at you.
But everyone’s patience has its limits. So don’t make mistakes that you will later regret."
Kyuhyun tought for a moment - "Maybe I should at least try to get to know him better, before making assumptions and rejecting him" - Kyuhyun said and Yesung nodded approving of his decision.
"Thank you hyung, talking with you really helped me" - Kyuhyun said and snuggled closer to Yesung - "Would you mind is I sleep a little, there’s still plenty of time till next class and I feel tired."
Yesung shook his head showing that he doesn't mind and pointed to his lap to let Kyuhyun know that he can sleep there to be more comfortable. Kyuhyun saw it and lay down on the grass putting his head on Yesung’s lap, he again took one of Yesung’s hands and intertwined their fingers, he felt that Yesung started to gently stroke his hair before drifting off to sleep.