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So...I had a good night..I slept for like an hour... I woke up to a phone call at 5:30 in the morning..who else?..my mother. She told me that I HAD to pick my sister up for school and take her to work after school..that she was going to the hospital...so..score..my mother..hospital..yet again. My sister fights with me constantly..and then expects favors..I don't know...maybe if either set of parents took repsonsibility...then I would be okay..I don't know why my dad can't take her to and from work/school if my mother can't..when did it become my job? I'm 16...not 36. My gramps needs surgery again...but he REFUSES to get it done..so..he's going to end up having a massive stroke and/or heart attack...again. He doesn't remember who I am half the time...he loses money..ALL the time..and forgets to turn the stove off. My aunt needs to do something..my father needs to do something..someone needs to do something. I clean his house...I take him to the store..I wash his clothes...he's my grandfather...not my father...his children should be taking care of him..not me. Yet again..I'm 16..I can't handle this responsibility. My report card this semester...let's see... Trig-A, CIS-A, English-A-, History-A-, Journalism-B, Chemistry-C-, Gym-I..will turn into a D!...pretty fuckin sweet report card...my parents are going to murder me...and I will never get money for college...because I'm dumb..and a fuck up..and I never do anything I'm suppose to. With my SAT scores..I don't even know if I'll get into college...so..yeah...I'll be stuck in The Wyoming Valley my entire life..never to do anything but work at a fuckin Price Chopper.
I think I need mental help...
I think I need mental help...