You were everything, everything that I wanted...
A few days…no, wait…a few hours in Iron River would be enough. Being in this place will make one crazy, and I am not kidding you in the least. My poor sister…I feel so bad for her being stuck here with my parents. I love them to death, but living with them is just way too crazy and I don’t think I’ll ever be able to do it again.
I’ve had a lot of time to sit and think since I’ve been here…mom is getting me new glasses for Christmas since I’ve broken mine and I do need new ones. I’m getting the ones I love. They’re very sexy and I think they’ll suit me well. I can’t wait to get them. I also want these boots from eBay, which I’ve already placed a bid on but I don’t have enough money for (!!!), but they’re high teal Uggs. I love them. Sadly, the thought of working on my self-image makes me very happy. Once I get the glasses and boots and I start making enough money for other things I’m planning on getting probably 2 or 3 pairs of Silver jeans from Maurice’s (never had a pair of jeans that fit so well!) and a few more black shirts. Also in need of some more boot socks and some fitting bras.
Once I get those things I’m going to start on ink again. I have six small tattoos, now it’s time for the big ones. I have the one for my forearm which is going to be a cover-up of the small little heart I have tattooed there…the cover-up being something I found on a matchbook and it is amazing. That’s going to be on my right forearm and I’m going to work on that arm first. The design is a snake wrapped around a vinyl boot-wearing leg that has been detached from the body, the bone sticking out of the top of it and a skull on the boot and some blood splats coming out. I’m going to get it all filled in with black and just have the blood coming out as red. My elbow is going to be tattooed with a spider web with a heart in the center of it…I’m going to look up different meanings to find the best one for me. For my upper arm I have the half-sleeve design all set up, it has been for quite some time. I’m getting the Venus de Milo painting on there…with her standing in the shell and her hair long and flowing and covering herself up. I think that instead of having it look like the timeless classy painting by Botticelli I want a sexy, racier version of her (after all, she is the Roman goddess of sex and beauty) with red lipstick and a more seductive look on her face. Underneath her will still be the shell but with that I want red roses…those will go down a portion of my arm and will take up a portion of the background behind her. I also want a set of angel/devil or comedy/tragedy SKULLS, which is my thing. I love skulls, black line work, simple designs and spider webs. And included in this portion of my tattoo will be some bats and I want them to go from the upper portion of my arm over to my back and mixed with my first tattoo on my shoulder. And in that tattoo I want the pink in it to be colored in red…it’s all going to be amazing.
I may be addicted to body art.
After talking to the medium and learning all these new things, I’m applying at the Douglas J. Aveda Institute of Cosmetology. There are three downstate but I’m applying at the one in Ann Arbor, where Jessie lives. If I get in it was meant to be, if I don’t then it just wasn’t for me. If I do get in it will be amazing. Can you imagine me doing make-up and styling and coloring hair for a living? I’d love it!! My life, though it seems to be terrible, really isn’t going to be that bad. I’m fixing it all and it will turn around. I’m going to make sure I go out and do something that will not only make me happy, but will allow me to live comfortably with the things I want to get in my life.
Keep your head high, gorgeous. There are people that would kill to see you fall.
My life is going to get better. As the Beatles sang, “It’s getting better all the time…” I may get discouraged often but I’m changing that…I’m making my life better. It’s going to suit me and I’m going to be happier than I’ve ever been. I’m already more happy than if I were in Iron River. I have an apartment, a job (although I’m searching for another one) a wonderful boyfriend who is amazing, my body is looking better than it ever has before, I’m rarely drinking, I’m not smoking anymore, I’m not touching any sort of drugs anymore. I’m clean, I feel good and I’m happy. Life is good, and it’s only going to get better.
Hate all you want, but remember, you can’t break the girl that thinks nothing of you.
I’ve had a lot of time to sit and think since I’ve been here…mom is getting me new glasses for Christmas since I’ve broken mine and I do need new ones. I’m getting the ones I love. They’re very sexy and I think they’ll suit me well. I can’t wait to get them. I also want these boots from eBay, which I’ve already placed a bid on but I don’t have enough money for (!!!), but they’re high teal Uggs. I love them. Sadly, the thought of working on my self-image makes me very happy. Once I get the glasses and boots and I start making enough money for other things I’m planning on getting probably 2 or 3 pairs of Silver jeans from Maurice’s (never had a pair of jeans that fit so well!) and a few more black shirts. Also in need of some more boot socks and some fitting bras.
Once I get those things I’m going to start on ink again. I have six small tattoos, now it’s time for the big ones. I have the one for my forearm which is going to be a cover-up of the small little heart I have tattooed there…the cover-up being something I found on a matchbook and it is amazing. That’s going to be on my right forearm and I’m going to work on that arm first. The design is a snake wrapped around a vinyl boot-wearing leg that has been detached from the body, the bone sticking out of the top of it and a skull on the boot and some blood splats coming out. I’m going to get it all filled in with black and just have the blood coming out as red. My elbow is going to be tattooed with a spider web with a heart in the center of it…I’m going to look up different meanings to find the best one for me. For my upper arm I have the half-sleeve design all set up, it has been for quite some time. I’m getting the Venus de Milo painting on there…with her standing in the shell and her hair long and flowing and covering herself up. I think that instead of having it look like the timeless classy painting by Botticelli I want a sexy, racier version of her (after all, she is the Roman goddess of sex and beauty) with red lipstick and a more seductive look on her face. Underneath her will still be the shell but with that I want red roses…those will go down a portion of my arm and will take up a portion of the background behind her. I also want a set of angel/devil or comedy/tragedy SKULLS, which is my thing. I love skulls, black line work, simple designs and spider webs. And included in this portion of my tattoo will be some bats and I want them to go from the upper portion of my arm over to my back and mixed with my first tattoo on my shoulder. And in that tattoo I want the pink in it to be colored in red…it’s all going to be amazing.
I may be addicted to body art.
After talking to the medium and learning all these new things, I’m applying at the Douglas J. Aveda Institute of Cosmetology. There are three downstate but I’m applying at the one in Ann Arbor, where Jessie lives. If I get in it was meant to be, if I don’t then it just wasn’t for me. If I do get in it will be amazing. Can you imagine me doing make-up and styling and coloring hair for a living? I’d love it!! My life, though it seems to be terrible, really isn’t going to be that bad. I’m fixing it all and it will turn around. I’m going to make sure I go out and do something that will not only make me happy, but will allow me to live comfortably with the things I want to get in my life.
Keep your head high, gorgeous. There are people that would kill to see you fall.
My life is going to get better. As the Beatles sang, “It’s getting better all the time…” I may get discouraged often but I’m changing that…I’m making my life better. It’s going to suit me and I’m going to be happier than I’ve ever been. I’m already more happy than if I were in Iron River. I have an apartment, a job (although I’m searching for another one) a wonderful boyfriend who is amazing, my body is looking better than it ever has before, I’m rarely drinking, I’m not smoking anymore, I’m not touching any sort of drugs anymore. I’m clean, I feel good and I’m happy. Life is good, and it’s only going to get better.
Hate all you want, but remember, you can’t break the girl that thinks nothing of you.