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our mind is a nifty thing.we can hate someone so much then quickly miss them. you can want to be next to someone so badly, hear the right song, or see their picture and suddenly it feels like they're right next to you. i want to learn as much as i can about the human brain and pyschi. the funny thing is, i know that even if i were to learn everything and get a degree in psychology, i still wouldnt know shit. the brain cant be comprehended. you can try to understand it, but its the same understanding you have for why a hamburger tastes like a hamburger or sweet pea smells so good. ive always thought that if i knew how the mind works, i could understand people and live an easy life. its probably true. i could live a content life, writing off psychological explanations for everything that happens, but thats where it would end. a lot of my views on life, love, fear, happiness have all changed. the things ive been thru made me realize that i looked at life in a very immature and unsure way. what i thought i knew about everything was all very simplistic in design. certain views still remain. ill always be a firm believer that things happen for a reason. wether its the hand of god, destiny, or just coincidence i dont know. i know my posts have been very serious and deep lately, so you know, no this isnt one of those "about to kill myself so ill admit to everything" sort of deals. i honestly get some release by publicly displaying my thought process. so things are becoming easy again. that feeling i had before where i woke and was happy because i realized life is amazing is back and you know what else? life is amazing. im happy. for the first time in my life everything is going my way. i made my life what it is right now and that feels so nice. im going to be starting school again and learning to tricks of the music recording trade. i have a nice manager position at work that came from my hard work and determination. i have an amazing girlfriend who makes me smile and laugh and make my heart skip a beat. its all uphill and for once my brain isnt thinking of how it could go wrong. goodnite folks. i await my ladies pre-sleep phonecall.
-bayless
-bayless