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okay so, I'm not so sure this day was good. I mean it's 8 and Ive barely started on my essay for futch. I just don't feel like it, not to mention the small not understanding what it's talking about part. The stupid fuck asses at our apartment complex broke a water main or something, so now we don't have water temporarily. god my dad smells so bad he needs a shower hard core. me and my mom were watching oprah today, and she actually asked me how many people I've slept with. I answered her of course cuz I mean it's only 2, well 3 but I don't count one of them lol. that isn't bad is it? Cuz now I kinda feel dirty. She didnt' say anything to make me feel that way, but now that I think about it, 3 people kind of is alot to get naked and romp around with. Whatever it's over and done now, but I want to find someone who isn't an asshole, and well we may not have sex, but I want to at least feel like he wants me, I'm getting nothing now, if I didn't know any better I would say that I'm ugly or unattractive ( shut up joey I know your going to say something). Is it wrong to need the affection of a significant other to feel whole, well if I didn't have a significant other I think it would be a lil different, but since I do, I'm kinda not liking being emotionally ignored. Okay guys post comments and tell me how sad and codependent I am..ready GO!!!