taking hints
sometimes im amazing at taking them. and sometimes i think i know what the person is getting at but im just, like meh i dont care. haha. so as of the past week i've been getting a few. good and bad. and the good ones are amazing but the bad ones make me sad. and i dont like being sad. so im trying not to be. and i hate it when i meet people who instantly seem interested and then gradually seem to get less and less into me. grrr, so frustrating. oh well. shit happens. from first to last is playing 2/21/05. and i know thats a long time away. but they make me happy. i will never hear 'emily' again w/o thinking of someone who played it for me sitting on his amp me on the floor staring at each other like no one else existed. the strange thing that happened in connection with this song was when he played it i'd never heard it. and he didnt sing the words only played the chords. so all i heard was instrumental i guess you'd call it. and he msged me thru myspace and as im reading it my heart is sinking and i hit reply and am trying to gather my thoughts on what im going to say back and i hear the first chords of this song..the song he played...emily. and immediately stopped and had huge tears in my eyes. a song i'd never heard but randomly downloaded just 'happened' to come on as im writing back the person that played it for me...our timing sucks.
*Emily*
Smiles and her laughter
its the only thing that I've been waiting for a time
regardless of our distance and our hope...grows greater
trapped by pretty eyes and letters for all time
...the only thing that I've been waiting for.
I hope its something worth the waiting
cause its the only time that I ever feel real
thunder storms could never stop me
cause there's no one in the world like Emily
she's simple yet confusing
her sparkling eyes make me weak at my words, they tremble
days seem like years in this month of December
the winter coldens me for I have yet to sleep
and never will I give up trying because you're everything to me
I hope its something worth the waiting
its the only time that I ever feel real
thunder storms could never stop me
cause there's no one in the world like emily.
but fuck it its a good song. they are playing with matchbook romance and motioncity soundtrack.
Thought for the day:
If two people are meant to be together, but something prevents them from meeting, will they find a way to be together? If it's meant to be do you unconciously find a way to make it happen. This is a battle, a war, and the casualties could be our hearts and souls...
i am going to say yes to this. i think if you care for someone you will end up seeing them one day. and it may not be under the circumstances that you'd planned or even the way you wanted it to work out. but it will happen. even if they are from another state. and the events leading up and the events afterwards are meaningless compared to the time you spent with them when it seemed the world stopped.
i am tired of being single. real tired of it. i know that im an amazing girlfriend. i dont have short relationships, they are all long term. which means to me that i can hold a relationship and make it work with some kind of passion and stability. it seems like everything in my life is perfect except for the relationship aspect of it. i have the most amazing best friend i could ask for. school is going great, im making amazing grades, things are great with my parents. its christmas time (my favorite time of year). all i want is a boyfriend. someone that will go ice skating with me and drink hot chocolate and watch me and laugh so hard at my ass when i fall and eat shit. someone that will sit at home with me and cuddle up under a blanket when its cold and watch movies and fall asleep together. someone that will make a gingerbread house with me. someone i can buy cute meaningless things for on christmas and watch him open them and smile and know i put that smile on his face. someone to hold my hand and they fit perfectly together. someone to lay on my trampoline with and look at the stars. someone to go look at christmas lights with me. someone that i can just be me with. someone that wants me as bad as i want them. asdlkfjwo;iejf! emoxcore. haha. ok im going to go eat dinner and hopefully fall in love somewhere along the way. hahahhaha. <3
*Emily*
Smiles and her laughter
its the only thing that I've been waiting for a time
regardless of our distance and our hope...grows greater
trapped by pretty eyes and letters for all time
...the only thing that I've been waiting for.
I hope its something worth the waiting
cause its the only time that I ever feel real
thunder storms could never stop me
cause there's no one in the world like Emily
she's simple yet confusing
her sparkling eyes make me weak at my words, they tremble
days seem like years in this month of December
the winter coldens me for I have yet to sleep
and never will I give up trying because you're everything to me
I hope its something worth the waiting
its the only time that I ever feel real
thunder storms could never stop me
cause there's no one in the world like emily.
but fuck it its a good song. they are playing with matchbook romance and motioncity soundtrack.
Thought for the day:
If two people are meant to be together, but something prevents them from meeting, will they find a way to be together? If it's meant to be do you unconciously find a way to make it happen. This is a battle, a war, and the casualties could be our hearts and souls...
i am going to say yes to this. i think if you care for someone you will end up seeing them one day. and it may not be under the circumstances that you'd planned or even the way you wanted it to work out. but it will happen. even if they are from another state. and the events leading up and the events afterwards are meaningless compared to the time you spent with them when it seemed the world stopped.
i am tired of being single. real tired of it. i know that im an amazing girlfriend. i dont have short relationships, they are all long term. which means to me that i can hold a relationship and make it work with some kind of passion and stability. it seems like everything in my life is perfect except for the relationship aspect of it. i have the most amazing best friend i could ask for. school is going great, im making amazing grades, things are great with my parents. its christmas time (my favorite time of year). all i want is a boyfriend. someone that will go ice skating with me and drink hot chocolate and watch me and laugh so hard at my ass when i fall and eat shit. someone that will sit at home with me and cuddle up under a blanket when its cold and watch movies and fall asleep together. someone that will make a gingerbread house with me. someone i can buy cute meaningless things for on christmas and watch him open them and smile and know i put that smile on his face. someone to hold my hand and they fit perfectly together. someone to lay on my trampoline with and look at the stars. someone to go look at christmas lights with me. someone that i can just be me with. someone that wants me as bad as i want them. asdlkfjwo;iejf! emoxcore. haha. ok im going to go eat dinner and hopefully fall in love somewhere along the way. hahahhaha. <3