Let continue....
haha.... I'm just gonna continue on this journal... I ususally make a new one but... I like the history I kept in here. haha XD
So.... journal... Its been about 2-3 years since my last post. && I can't believe how depressing I was when I was in middle school and a little bit in high school.
Its really funny. I look at myself now and myself back then... & pretty much I think I changed for the better. :]
Let's update.
hm...
Senior year was the best and stressful year of my life.
it started out stressful. Taking the last minute SATs and College Apps. (first semester) then a relaxing time after those tasks were done (second semester) but waiting for what colleges I got into was... SCARRRYYY.
I graduate May 17, 2011 from West Ranch High School. It was an amazing day. I couldn't forget how glad I was to be leaving high school at the same time, sadden. I wouldn't be able to see my best friends as often as I wanted at the same time miss the greatest teachers who came into my life! XD
Before leaving high school... second semester. I was pretty much smart at the same time the dumbest and stupidst person I could ever be. I, unforunately made a promise with Jilly in the beginning of freshmen year, to get a boyfriend during high school. Me, the rusher, wanted to find a guy quickly... because time was ticking. I became desperate that I lowered my standards in guys resulting me to go into stupid crowds just to get the guy.
In the end, the guy I had "fallen in love for"... FUCKED ME UP... physically and mentally. I felt that I could never get in a guy in my life. That very day.... I went home from Courtney's house crying... the pain was too much and I... did physcial damage on myself... and hurt one of my best friends over the phone while I was doing it.
Fortunately after this incident... my open wounds healed... as well as my heart and soul. I realized that the guy real wasn't worth my time praising for. He was just a dumbass guy who looked at appearance and was pretty much messed up himself. Oh and he ended up dating one of my friends... but thats another story. I just don't care anymore about him.
"At least I can say my senior year was eventful." I remember me saying a while back when this incident was fresh in my mind. I won't say I wil never forget this event... but I'm kind of sort of... glad it happened. I pretty much would be bored and writing depressing teenage angst poems about life and how life is so unfair... haha.
In August 2011, I went to my new school, Cal Sate Northridge. I know I was hoping to get into UCLA, USC... etc... but really I'm happy where I am at. The "tough" music program accepted me during my auditions... as a violinst... but when I had to audition for the orchestra, the 11 years of practicing violinst.... became a violist. haha
I took the challenge... and surprisingly lived. and is still living.
I met so many people. People that I had a long lasting friendship already and many new friends from my classes. I remember stepping into CSUN with a healthy mind to study my hardest, get good grades, learn and of course.... GET A BOYFRIEND and stop being single.
well. hehee.... I wish I could tell my younger self now... that everything going to be alright... you'll get a boyfriend 18 years from now. and literally it will be a surprise how you guys got together. hahha.
I could have not asked for a better boyfriend. He is seriously the sweetest guy I have ever met in my life. We have so many interest that the list is crazy ass long. Literally he's the guy version of me. I can say that with heart because I know it is true... he is literally like me in so many ways... (maybe a little laid back then I am :P) but I am insanely happy to have him in my life.
I remember when we became official and I was so weirded out at some points of us dating... one because I was so not used to a guys affection for me. two. just having someone around and making plans to be together was different. ( i was so used to being alone all the time) three. wondering if this relationship was going to work or not ( because I took everything in a negative perspective... I finally got out of that mess of thinking). and Four. MY FIRST BOYFRIEND. (so inexpereinced).
hahah
everythings alright. we celebrated our one month on Monday. It was fun being with him because even though we go to the same school, I barely see him. Our majors are different and this kind of increases me missing him a lot everyday... even though we text... EVERYDAY. XD
i hope we stay together for as long as we can. <3 (oh yeah we give a lot of those... haha)
kk I have to sleep now. early 9:30 class in the morning. JOY.
college girl. OUT.
-charlene
So.... journal... Its been about 2-3 years since my last post. && I can't believe how depressing I was when I was in middle school and a little bit in high school.
Its really funny. I look at myself now and myself back then... & pretty much I think I changed for the better. :]
Let's update.
hm...
Senior year was the best and stressful year of my life.
it started out stressful. Taking the last minute SATs and College Apps. (first semester) then a relaxing time after those tasks were done (second semester) but waiting for what colleges I got into was... SCARRRYYY.
I graduate May 17, 2011 from West Ranch High School. It was an amazing day. I couldn't forget how glad I was to be leaving high school at the same time, sadden. I wouldn't be able to see my best friends as often as I wanted at the same time miss the greatest teachers who came into my life! XD
Before leaving high school... second semester. I was pretty much smart at the same time the dumbest and stupidst person I could ever be. I, unforunately made a promise with Jilly in the beginning of freshmen year, to get a boyfriend during high school. Me, the rusher, wanted to find a guy quickly... because time was ticking. I became desperate that I lowered my standards in guys resulting me to go into stupid crowds just to get the guy.
In the end, the guy I had "fallen in love for"... FUCKED ME UP... physically and mentally. I felt that I could never get in a guy in my life. That very day.... I went home from Courtney's house crying... the pain was too much and I... did physcial damage on myself... and hurt one of my best friends over the phone while I was doing it.
Fortunately after this incident... my open wounds healed... as well as my heart and soul. I realized that the guy real wasn't worth my time praising for. He was just a dumbass guy who looked at appearance and was pretty much messed up himself. Oh and he ended up dating one of my friends... but thats another story. I just don't care anymore about him.
"At least I can say my senior year was eventful." I remember me saying a while back when this incident was fresh in my mind. I won't say I wil never forget this event... but I'm kind of sort of... glad it happened. I pretty much would be bored and writing depressing teenage angst poems about life and how life is so unfair... haha.
In August 2011, I went to my new school, Cal Sate Northridge. I know I was hoping to get into UCLA, USC... etc... but really I'm happy where I am at. The "tough" music program accepted me during my auditions... as a violinst... but when I had to audition for the orchestra, the 11 years of practicing violinst.... became a violist. haha
I took the challenge... and surprisingly lived. and is still living.
I met so many people. People that I had a long lasting friendship already and many new friends from my classes. I remember stepping into CSUN with a healthy mind to study my hardest, get good grades, learn and of course.... GET A BOYFRIEND and stop being single.
well. hehee.... I wish I could tell my younger self now... that everything going to be alright... you'll get a boyfriend 18 years from now. and literally it will be a surprise how you guys got together. hahha.
I could have not asked for a better boyfriend. He is seriously the sweetest guy I have ever met in my life. We have so many interest that the list is crazy ass long. Literally he's the guy version of me. I can say that with heart because I know it is true... he is literally like me in so many ways... (maybe a little laid back then I am :P) but I am insanely happy to have him in my life.
I remember when we became official and I was so weirded out at some points of us dating... one because I was so not used to a guys affection for me. two. just having someone around and making plans to be together was different. ( i was so used to being alone all the time) three. wondering if this relationship was going to work or not ( because I took everything in a negative perspective... I finally got out of that mess of thinking). and Four. MY FIRST BOYFRIEND. (so inexpereinced).
hahah
everythings alright. we celebrated our one month on Monday. It was fun being with him because even though we go to the same school, I barely see him. Our majors are different and this kind of increases me missing him a lot everyday... even though we text... EVERYDAY. XD
i hope we stay together for as long as we can. <3 (oh yeah we give a lot of those... haha)
kk I have to sleep now. early 9:30 class in the morning. JOY.
college girl. OUT.
-charlene