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[ifrigginrock]

Lately things have been going downhill.
Faster than I ever thought possible.
And it's not just one thing at a time.
It's everythiing at once.
Which makes it harder to pretend that everything
is okay. It's hard to smile. Or even laugh.
I've noticed that lately I've been getting angry
or upset by things that aren't serious.

And I wish I could talk  to someone.
But I can't. Not that I have no one.
It's just, these things are too many,
and too complex. I wouldn't know
where to start or how to explain.

Basically, it just seems that all the
things that once meant the world to
me are the things that are falling apart.
And quite honestly, there is nothing I
can do about it.

"Everything will be fine. Everyone has problems.
Try to think of someone somewhere who has it
worse." These things that you once said used to
help. But now that you are my problem, it doesn't
do anything for me.

Gay. I wish I could fix all of this. There's a possibility
I can. But the effort that should be used will take
too long. And I don't have that kind of time.

I just wish the day I move could be tomorrow.
Then I could start all over. In a sort of new town.
With new people.

Yea.