Flowers
I’ve just ordered your flowers, Ells.
They’re going to be like your userpic - only all in caps because, you know, closest I could get.
They’re not just from me, they’re from a group of your LJ friends. So many I don’t think there’s going to be room on the card for all of our names, so I think I’m just going to have to say “From your LJ friends”. You know who they are anyway.
It still feels weird that I’m never going to hear your voice again. Never going to wake up at Christmas or on my birthday to your “Happy Saturday” or whatever day it is text. I’m still going to send you yours though. Until someone replies one day and says “I don’t know who Ella is, but you have the wrong number,” and then I guess I’ll be sad all over again.
The sadness is heavy. You know what that feels like, I know. But to have sadness, first you have to have love. And I have so much of that for you, my dear friend.