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I haven't updated in a few days and I'm not really into doing it right now either, but I'll give a brief overview. The past couple of days have been really difficult for me. I've been really emotional, having a hard time concentrating on school, and basically going out of my mind. So yesterday it kind of came to a breaking point and Kris and I talked and it was really difficult to hear him telling me that he doesn't want me as a girlfriend and if I can't be just his friend, then he doesn't want to talk to me at all. He came over that afternoon to hang out and we watched Fight Club and then went out for dinner. We actually had a pretty good time together, I think. It's pretty weird for me to act like just his friend because even before we dated and were just friends - we were still always flirting and whatnot. After dinner and some drinks we took the bus over to his place because it was pretty early and I didn't want to go home and hang out by myself. Once I got there I crashed on the couch and Kris played video games. Around 10pm or so we went to his bedroom and fell asleep. Yeah, nothing actually happened! We were both pretty tired and I realized the importance of not fooling around right before we were about to spend a week in Cuba together. I was fine sleeping alone on the couch, but he wanted me to sleep in his bed. I guess he is lonely too. However, I had a super bad headache and he was snoring and I really wanted to go home but didn't have a number for the cab. So at 5am I started feeling really sick and had to wake him up to find the number of a cab. I got home and went straight to the bathroom where I was sick, sick, sick. I was supposed to go to my parents today, but because I'm not feeling good, I'm just going to stick around here. Being at home would be great, but 3 hours in the car doesn't sound like fun. I think I will go there tomorrow so that I can spend a few days there and try to keep myself busy and hopefully get to hang out with some people. So that's the update. That's about it.