i am irritable

[ifonlykisses]

well for some reason i'm really fucking irritable right now. i guess its because i'm relatively depressed right now. i kinda feel like everyones slipping away from me cept jake. not saying that jake being close is a BAD thing! its a completely and totally good thing but....i miss my friends alot. i miss missy a whole bunchles. i mean she always used to be like "JIL I MISS YOU SO MUCH I WANT TO HANG OUT SOON!" but now that shes ungrounded for the most part shes like..."oh i so totally would but i'm going to my ex boyfriend's dance recital" and i think me and megan had plans on saturday then she hung out with stephanie insted. and she got to go to 'death blow' (or somthing like that)after she said i couldn't go because i was a youngin. stephanie is younger then me! i mean i'm not mad at megan at all. but i'm just feeling kinda hurt right now and i guess thats somthing that got to me. i dont mind her hanging out with stef i just miss her a bunch. And hippie creeped me out, i unno i just feel very distanced from everyone. i feel like david just looks at me like a big nuisence. and i dont really have many close friends. i used to have a bunch. oh and now ashelys mom doesn't want me comeing over anymore because she thought i was high or drunk,when i actually wasn't.i was just really tired! god. well i think i'm gonna go inhale some of the lusterous cancer to make myself feel better.

+JiL