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Hmm, yeah cried all night.
Need a job. I miss people.
Need to get the fuck out of here.
Im gone suckers. GONE.
Hopefully I can stay for my senior year. If not that's ok...
I hate my life, really do.
Funny how someone can be kicked out of a house for leaving a gatordae bottle on the counter THE FUCKING COUTER! IN THE FUCKING KITCHEN!
I don't get how someone can say- oh p.s. even though we took you in and wanted you, we dont want you to be our kid anymore- even though we fought for you in the courts, promised we would put you through college..so forth..
I can't wait to get out, maybe I'll even move to Texas.
Or california.
Fuck what do I care, obviously I'm fucking worthless to anyone in my family.
Funny how that works out.
I don't do drugs, I tell them where im going, Im lazy sometimes but hell arent we all?
Im 18 years old, am I REALLY supposed to be a full-fledged adult?
Fuck, I think I'll just be a stripper or something
thatll pay for housing, college.
Im not going to rely on these people for much longer.
I have a decent place to live, I have money, but really, wheres the love?
I fucking hate it.
My Oma says if I'll hold out a little longer I can be out of this hellhole.
I hate crying every night, I hate being under lock and key, I hate staying home every night because I shouldnt be able to have a life.
Most kids my age are at least allowed to go somewhere without being hassled for two hours on why they shouldnt be friends with EVERYONE. Im not allowed to have any friends. I am, they just dont approve of anyone...I mean ANYONE.
Dude are they living in the fucking 50s?
Oh yeah, burning incense, or walking with a ciggarette in my hand is SLUTTY...hahahahahahaha.
Check out those sabino chicks with their vaginas hanging out of their skirts and tell me im slutty...yeah thats right STFU.
If i hear one more thing about me being a bad kid again, im going to have a kinipshit, a big one, a breakdown, im tired of it.
they want me to grow up, yet they hinder me from progressing with every fucking mind game, power trip, evil, druken, fucked up word they say.
Im tired, Im lonely, I want to move out.
Ive been dealing with this for four fucking years, and let me tell you, i cant deal with it ANYMORE. I told my mom, and my oma, that i need out, they agree.
Im not the only one in the family that thinks they might be a little off their hinges.
I hate being treated like im some kind of fuck-up.
Im not, I refuse to believe it. Do they wonder why i might stray sometimes? Its because of all the shit they say i am.
Fuckup, worthless, a monster, ignorant, mean, selfish, a bitch, heartless, a liar, lazy, brat, cna i name anything else...yes!
Well lets see, I dont ask for much, i rarely buy clothes, i ask for gas money, and food. ohhh yeah i sure am fucking up your retirement!
Maybe you should of thought of the fact that maybe having a kid would hinder the retiree way of life, yeah um duh.
Fuck this shit, fuck it all.
Im tired of being bottled up. Im tired of carrying a backpack of emotions around. Im not some spoiled little rich kid who gets everything they want. And personally I dont want everything. I want to go to college, i want to get out of here, i want my own place, on my own terms. I want marriage and kids and above all love.
If there was just a tad more love in the world id me happier. All this fucking HATRED. You little highschool punks only think about yourselves. BITCH BITCH BITCH, MOAN MOAN MOAN: Im too fat, i didnt make the cheerleading team, i didnt get a new car, im too cool for oyu, im so unhappy, boo fucking hoo. Im tired of it. I hate dealing with morons every day of my existence. MORONS. Now Im not saying everyone is. But my GOD. If there was a brain up there could oyu actually start thinking about something else other than boys, cars, football, and getting drunk, girls, SEX SEX SEX?? HMM? CAN YOU?
Fuck off, all of you. Im tired of the popularity game, its all a bunch of bullshit. Just because someone doesnt get up at 4 in the fucking morning to get themselves perfect everyday doesnt mean that they arent an interesting, fun, beautiful person. You dont have to throw up or do cocaine and wear a shitload of makeup to be popular! Be your fucking slef, and dont tell me thats you, because its retarded.
I hate everyone being such fucking assholes. If someone likes drama, fine and dandy, if they go to CISCO classes- great, if they like wearing white makeup and wearing eyeliner- good! If they are gay- awesome, if they drive a beat up car- who are oyu to judge? There are so many varieties of people in this world, you are just so closed to the real world, Im so fucking sorry you couldnt find the perfect eyeliner to match your outfit..boo hoo too sad, give me a break, its not the end of the world. There are sooo many different problems in everyones life. Im not minimizing your problems, just stop and thing, wow instead of worrying about makeup and the perfect outfit, there are ACTUALLY people out in the owrld who are involved in gangs, are starving to death, dying for our country, being raped, murdered, plundered! THINK GOD DAMN YOU FUCKING THINK!!!!!
Seriously- stop what your doing, call a friend, ask them how they feel, whats going on in their lives, how you can help them through their issues. Stop always thinking of yourself. Just stop it, its unattractive. I wish I had half as many friends as any of you do. I don't, Ive lost too many in my fucked up desires. I really have, and Im sorry to anyone I have pushed out of my life.
Before oyu laugh at the "geek" running to lunch, or the "homo" you saw kissing another of the same sex, or the "loser" who cant seem to stick around in class, because HE JUST MIGHT have other things on his mind (maybe he gets beat by his dad, or maybe they are too poor to even think about having a better life) before oyu do anything hurtful to another human being, think about this- you dont know why they are the way they are, you dont, stop pretending oyu do. I dont know where im going with this, and personally i dont care. Im so pissed at so many petty people i could scream.
All i want is to get out of here, go live as a hermit in the mountains or something, I need ot go find inner peace, some form of prayer, SOMETHING. Fuck off.
Need a job. I miss people.
Need to get the fuck out of here.
Im gone suckers. GONE.
Hopefully I can stay for my senior year. If not that's ok...
I hate my life, really do.
Funny how someone can be kicked out of a house for leaving a gatordae bottle on the counter THE FUCKING COUTER! IN THE FUCKING KITCHEN!
I don't get how someone can say- oh p.s. even though we took you in and wanted you, we dont want you to be our kid anymore- even though we fought for you in the courts, promised we would put you through college..so forth..
I can't wait to get out, maybe I'll even move to Texas.
Or california.
Fuck what do I care, obviously I'm fucking worthless to anyone in my family.
Funny how that works out.
I don't do drugs, I tell them where im going, Im lazy sometimes but hell arent we all?
Im 18 years old, am I REALLY supposed to be a full-fledged adult?
Fuck, I think I'll just be a stripper or something
thatll pay for housing, college.
Im not going to rely on these people for much longer.
I have a decent place to live, I have money, but really, wheres the love?
I fucking hate it.
My Oma says if I'll hold out a little longer I can be out of this hellhole.
I hate crying every night, I hate being under lock and key, I hate staying home every night because I shouldnt be able to have a life.
Most kids my age are at least allowed to go somewhere without being hassled for two hours on why they shouldnt be friends with EVERYONE. Im not allowed to have any friends. I am, they just dont approve of anyone...I mean ANYONE.
Dude are they living in the fucking 50s?
Oh yeah, burning incense, or walking with a ciggarette in my hand is SLUTTY...hahahahahahaha.
Check out those sabino chicks with their vaginas hanging out of their skirts and tell me im slutty...yeah thats right STFU.
If i hear one more thing about me being a bad kid again, im going to have a kinipshit, a big one, a breakdown, im tired of it.
they want me to grow up, yet they hinder me from progressing with every fucking mind game, power trip, evil, druken, fucked up word they say.
Im tired, Im lonely, I want to move out.
Ive been dealing with this for four fucking years, and let me tell you, i cant deal with it ANYMORE. I told my mom, and my oma, that i need out, they agree.
Im not the only one in the family that thinks they might be a little off their hinges.
I hate being treated like im some kind of fuck-up.
Im not, I refuse to believe it. Do they wonder why i might stray sometimes? Its because of all the shit they say i am.
Fuckup, worthless, a monster, ignorant, mean, selfish, a bitch, heartless, a liar, lazy, brat, cna i name anything else...yes!
Well lets see, I dont ask for much, i rarely buy clothes, i ask for gas money, and food. ohhh yeah i sure am fucking up your retirement!
Maybe you should of thought of the fact that maybe having a kid would hinder the retiree way of life, yeah um duh.
Fuck this shit, fuck it all.
Im tired of being bottled up. Im tired of carrying a backpack of emotions around. Im not some spoiled little rich kid who gets everything they want. And personally I dont want everything. I want to go to college, i want to get out of here, i want my own place, on my own terms. I want marriage and kids and above all love.
If there was just a tad more love in the world id me happier. All this fucking HATRED. You little highschool punks only think about yourselves. BITCH BITCH BITCH, MOAN MOAN MOAN: Im too fat, i didnt make the cheerleading team, i didnt get a new car, im too cool for oyu, im so unhappy, boo fucking hoo. Im tired of it. I hate dealing with morons every day of my existence. MORONS. Now Im not saying everyone is. But my GOD. If there was a brain up there could oyu actually start thinking about something else other than boys, cars, football, and getting drunk, girls, SEX SEX SEX?? HMM? CAN YOU?
Fuck off, all of you. Im tired of the popularity game, its all a bunch of bullshit. Just because someone doesnt get up at 4 in the fucking morning to get themselves perfect everyday doesnt mean that they arent an interesting, fun, beautiful person. You dont have to throw up or do cocaine and wear a shitload of makeup to be popular! Be your fucking slef, and dont tell me thats you, because its retarded.
I hate everyone being such fucking assholes. If someone likes drama, fine and dandy, if they go to CISCO classes- great, if they like wearing white makeup and wearing eyeliner- good! If they are gay- awesome, if they drive a beat up car- who are oyu to judge? There are so many varieties of people in this world, you are just so closed to the real world, Im so fucking sorry you couldnt find the perfect eyeliner to match your outfit..boo hoo too sad, give me a break, its not the end of the world. There are sooo many different problems in everyones life. Im not minimizing your problems, just stop and thing, wow instead of worrying about makeup and the perfect outfit, there are ACTUALLY people out in the owrld who are involved in gangs, are starving to death, dying for our country, being raped, murdered, plundered! THINK GOD DAMN YOU FUCKING THINK!!!!!
Seriously- stop what your doing, call a friend, ask them how they feel, whats going on in their lives, how you can help them through their issues. Stop always thinking of yourself. Just stop it, its unattractive. I wish I had half as many friends as any of you do. I don't, Ive lost too many in my fucked up desires. I really have, and Im sorry to anyone I have pushed out of my life.
Before oyu laugh at the "geek" running to lunch, or the "homo" you saw kissing another of the same sex, or the "loser" who cant seem to stick around in class, because HE JUST MIGHT have other things on his mind (maybe he gets beat by his dad, or maybe they are too poor to even think about having a better life) before oyu do anything hurtful to another human being, think about this- you dont know why they are the way they are, you dont, stop pretending oyu do. I dont know where im going with this, and personally i dont care. Im so pissed at so many petty people i could scream.
All i want is to get out of here, go live as a hermit in the mountains or something, I need ot go find inner peace, some form of prayer, SOMETHING. Fuck off.