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Looking for a new job. Maybe. There are pros and cons. And the worst part is, I'm doing it because I'm letting myself be defeated.
Talked to abrazosdefuego and we decided that I will keep my job until I find another that has equal/more hours and equal/more pay. I just feel so suffocated at work and I feel like I need out. I get in such a bad mood and it's going to cost me my relationship if I don't fix it soon.
It comes down to jealousy. I've always liked to think I was not a jealous person. But it is a trait that I have picked up in the past 8 months. And how can I not? My man is kind, caring, sweet, nice, loving...he's gorgeous. How can I not be jealous?
And I guess it's self-esteem, too. Why does this perfect guy want me? I don't see it. Why can't I just believe that he loves me as much as I love him? Why can't I believe him when he says "forever"? And how can I learn to?
Talked to abrazosdefuego and we decided that I will keep my job until I find another that has equal/more hours and equal/more pay. I just feel so suffocated at work and I feel like I need out. I get in such a bad mood and it's going to cost me my relationship if I don't fix it soon.
It comes down to jealousy. I've always liked to think I was not a jealous person. But it is a trait that I have picked up in the past 8 months. And how can I not? My man is kind, caring, sweet, nice, loving...he's gorgeous. How can I not be jealous?
And I guess it's self-esteem, too. Why does this perfect guy want me? I don't see it. Why can't I just believe that he loves me as much as I love him? Why can't I believe him when he says "forever"? And how can I learn to?