by the first snow

[ifnotwinter]

i cant find anything to do all day
but listen to sad music
and think about
all the money i've spent
and will spend
on a trip to boston when i dont have the money and i'm spending my life savings on it

and the water is diamonds there's something you're hiding you wish you could just shout it out
"just fucking love me i'm tired of leaving and waking up in somebody else's clothes"

and if i'm broke i'm broke
and if i'm broke i'm broke

is it cliche to say i have a broken heart
but i broke it myself.
i need to get out
and i need to stop reading your letters
they're just reminding me
that they're only words.