the truth lies
It's been awhile since I've written anything in here. Life's been pretty busy lately. Um, work is pretty hectic. No matter how much I like doing what I do, sometimes at the end of the day it's just my job, something I have to get through until I go home. Nothing comes completely without bureaucratic bullshit. If I've learned anything about "real life" during my time here, it's that. But I'd say I'm happy here about 80% of the time. I think that's pretty good.
I wish I could say I could relate to the people I grew up with as well as the people I've met since college, but I think it's hard to shift the dynamic of a childhood friendship into one that works when we're adults. When we're young, we basically have to find the best people for us in a group of people that are thrown together based on where we live. When we're older, if we're lucky, we get to choose better fits out of a massive crowd of people. We don't have to settle on our friendships if we don't want to.
Not saying one is always better than the other, though ... It's like shopping at a boutique (smaller, less stuff is likely to fit you, but sometimes you find an unforgettable staple that lasts a long time. And if the staple gets ruined or lost, you compare everything else to its memory) compared to shopping in Target (more colorful, more fun stuff to look at, and the quality is usually okay. Stuff lasts for awhile).
I enjoy my friendships, but I realize now that they all unique to each other. It's just one of those things that happens, I guess, when we grow. When it comes to finding people that continue to make me who I am, it's become pretty clear to me that one size doesn't fit all.
Before I went off on my friendship tangent, I was going to mention something about Jeff. I am scared to even talk about him or type his name. I just feel like I've done this before, and it sucks when things don't work out. But it's been awhile since we met, and things are going well. I am not anyone's girlfriend, but I definitely have met someone I like to spend time with. He's cool, funny and handles me well. That's about all I have the strength to say :)
I wish I could say I could relate to the people I grew up with as well as the people I've met since college, but I think it's hard to shift the dynamic of a childhood friendship into one that works when we're adults. When we're young, we basically have to find the best people for us in a group of people that are thrown together based on where we live. When we're older, if we're lucky, we get to choose better fits out of a massive crowd of people. We don't have to settle on our friendships if we don't want to.
Not saying one is always better than the other, though ... It's like shopping at a boutique (smaller, less stuff is likely to fit you, but sometimes you find an unforgettable staple that lasts a long time. And if the staple gets ruined or lost, you compare everything else to its memory) compared to shopping in Target (more colorful, more fun stuff to look at, and the quality is usually okay. Stuff lasts for awhile).
I enjoy my friendships, but I realize now that they all unique to each other. It's just one of those things that happens, I guess, when we grow. When it comes to finding people that continue to make me who I am, it's become pretty clear to me that one size doesn't fit all.
Before I went off on my friendship tangent, I was going to mention something about Jeff. I am scared to even talk about him or type his name. I just feel like I've done this before, and it sucks when things don't work out. But it's been awhile since we met, and things are going well. I am not anyone's girlfriend, but I definitely have met someone I like to spend time with. He's cool, funny and handles me well. That's about all I have the strength to say :)