Make Me A Fool Made Out Of Paper Hearts....
I really cannot stand this feeling... i upset her again.. i confused him.... i hurt myself (not physical)... i ache inside.. and i try to hide it so that they cannot feel it.. but it is so hard to block something like that ... and i would love to just punch myself in the face right about fucking now... yes school is good so far... but fuck ... i want to find HIM.... where is he... i know i have many years.. but i want something close to me.. someone i may call my own and love them .. and they love me back.. and that will hold me for a long time.. and squeaze me to show he means it.... and to just be here... god... but like the song says.... YOU CAN'T ALWAYS GET WHAT YOU WANT....