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[Private]

[no_fastolfe]

Rinzler, I'm not sure if this requires your attention but I very much wish to talk to you. Everyone is discussing sex and it makes me feel inferior. I assume that sexual people look down on me. I'm not comfortable and I feel even more alone than I have been. Martha's husband is talking about sex. I like Martha very much but I hate being reminded that she is actively sexual and also an Earther who is married to a wizard and I feel that she will stop being my friend.

You aren't sexual and you aren't a murderer like the T-X and I need you to tell me if there is a private filter that is only locked to me. I think there is. I think everyone knows something that I don't.

[I'm. So very sorry Rinzler.]

[Private]

[ifightfor]

[Oh no Vasilia not you too. He was counting on someone not going totally crazy.]

You are not         |

inferior.

There is

JA307020 knows of no such filter.

Re: [Private]

[no_fastolfe]

Oh.

...Oh.

It's such a relief. I don't know why I didn't simply ask before. I've been so afraid, Rinzler.

I care about you very much but I feel that I don't express it enough, partially because I know you're not comfortable with organic forms of affection and I am as well and would hate for social inexperience to make you uncomfortable.

Also the people I love betray me and I so very much don't want you to. I'm sorry. Is it all right that I'm talking to you? Are you all right?

[Private]

[ifightfor]

[... Rinzler really did not think it was possible to go into information overload until this flood but: Yep. Overloaded.

User relationships are far too complex and they carry things around in their heads that

augh

Vasilia how does he help you. how.]

JA

I will not betray you. It is

fine that we are talking.

I am [distinctly not all right] adapting.

[Private]

[no_fastolfe]

I'm glad. I should have asked before. It seems very simple now.

[So obviously calming down.]

I love you. Speaking nonsexually, of course, but you make me happy to talk to. I don't like it when things upset you. I want to fix them even if sometimes it scares me how much you make me reconsider my stance on non-organic intelligences. I must accept that non-ascenion intelligences can be good because you are good and kind to me but it shakes the foundations of my belief and it will be so much effort to reconstruct my ideas that I don't want to.

Sometimes I resent you for this but I know it isn't your fault and it isn't fair to you so I'm sorry.

[Babble babble neurotic babble]

[Later - Private]

[no_fastolfe]

Rinzler someone told me that I should drink and that inebriation would improve my mental state and ease my tensions. But they also told me to have someone nearby to tell me when to stop drinking. Will you please come up to the cafeteria with me and try to figure out what has the highest alcohol content and then calculate a dose based on my body weight?

[Later - Private]

[ifightfor]

[He has still been trying to sort out that previous one and what he's supposed to say to it SO THIS GIVES HIM AN OUT.]

Yes.

[He'll just be on his way.]

[Later - Private]

[no_fastolfe]

[The whiskey tastes awful. Vasilia says so in surprisingly few words and then drinks some more.

Being drunk makes her head feel heavy and things feel painless. She says so, and then curls over the cafeteria table she's sitting at and goes to sleep.

Vasilia is an exciting drunk.]

[Later - Private]

[ifightfor]

[Rinzler does what any friend and gentleman would do in this situation: sits beside her rumbling reassuringly as she experiments with whiskey, and then, when she finally falls asleep, picks her up and carries her back to her quarters.

Maybe Rayne is right! That was pretty relaxing. Ish.]