18 and i have to worry about having a heart attack..
when to the eating disorder doctor. she told me that my life style and the shit that im still doing, despite being "in recovery" are leaving me at risk-at a big risk-for having a heart attack. im 18. she told me that last week, when i purged, and i felt like i was going to have a heart attack, and last week when i could not move, could not get out of bed, and a month ago, when i was in the hospital, all of these things, all of these times, i could have had a heart attack.
i knew that. i knew that when you have an eating disorder its a risk. you risk dying. i know that. i just never thought that it would be me. i always thought i was invinsible. i never thought my chest pains meant anything. i never heeded any of the medical warnings. i just didnt care-i took on the mentality it wont be me. and im still doing it.
im not chaning shit
so sad
im 18. and i know that i could kill myself. my doctor has warned me. i could have a heart attack if i continue with these behaviors. AND YET I DO.
why would someone so young, and with such a bright future do that to themselves???
i knew that. i knew that when you have an eating disorder its a risk. you risk dying. i know that. i just never thought that it would be me. i always thought i was invinsible. i never thought my chest pains meant anything. i never heeded any of the medical warnings. i just didnt care-i took on the mentality it wont be me. and im still doing it.
im not chaning shit
so sad
im 18. and i know that i could kill myself. my doctor has warned me. i could have a heart attack if i continue with these behaviors. AND YET I DO.
why would someone so young, and with such a bright future do that to themselves???