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I don't fall asleep easily at night anytime before 2 or 3. I'm told it's because I drink too much Coca Cola during the day. I guess I do. I like it. Fuck sleeping.
I read that you need to have an understanding of reality before you can make fiction. I think I have a lot to learn about 'reality'.
I watched 'Late Night With Conan OBrien' tonight, and scheduled after it is a show called 'Last Call' or something hosted by Carson Daly. It's sad to watch. It seems like hes trying to be two things that he is not, which make the show hard to watch: he is not funny and he is not good with talking to people. It's terrible to watch. He tries to talk to the band or the person he's interveiwing, and it always ends up boring and awkward. It might help if he was a naturally funny, quick thinking guy. Thing is, he isn't. He tried to do a stand up sort of thing that all the late night talk show hosts do at the begining of the show, and it was pitiful. It was not funny. It was painful to watch.
What the fuck is with this comedy on TV? Everyone always laughs at the unfunny horseshit these guys say. I was watching a program called 'Blue Collar TV' or something earlier today. See, they have a studio audience on it, like many shows. The thing was, the studio audience was laughing extremely enthusiastically after every retarded line these guys would say. And then the camera would pan over this studio audience, showing images of what appears to be the happiest people on the face of the earth. Not only would they laugh and clap, but they would turn to the people next to them and smile. See, the unfunny horseshit the guys on the tv show said not only made the studio audience laugh incessantly (sp?), but it also inspired them to love eachother. Or so it seemed. Fucking hell.
I remember when Brian said something like "It's only humans" one time about something. I really like that. I think about how Kurt Vonnegut talked about in the inside flap of some book how the first thing he learned in college for anthropology was that everyone is exactly the same. The point Brian and Kurt are trying to get across are very similar. I mean, I think of all the complications of life. How some people are poor and some are rich. How some people starve and some people fill themselves with food every second the get. How some people love eachother, how some hate eachother, how a girl tells you she misses you, how you tell her that you miss her too, and you aren't sure whether you really do. What does it matter. If you live life saying "It's only humans", what the hell is any of that going to matter to you? What the hell does anything matter? Nothing is important. Our brains tell us things are important. But it's just humans. Nothing is important.
But that doesn't make me happy to think. So instead I will belive I miss her and I will do my summer reading assignments before summer vacation is over.
I don't know why I do this. It's either a cry for someone to read my thoughts, to hear me. Or maybe it's because I enjoy rambling on, since I am not gonig to sleep, loaded up on caffeine from too much Coca Cola. Probably a little of both.
Be happy.
I read that you need to have an understanding of reality before you can make fiction. I think I have a lot to learn about 'reality'.
I watched 'Late Night With Conan OBrien' tonight, and scheduled after it is a show called 'Last Call' or something hosted by Carson Daly. It's sad to watch. It seems like hes trying to be two things that he is not, which make the show hard to watch: he is not funny and he is not good with talking to people. It's terrible to watch. He tries to talk to the band or the person he's interveiwing, and it always ends up boring and awkward. It might help if he was a naturally funny, quick thinking guy. Thing is, he isn't. He tried to do a stand up sort of thing that all the late night talk show hosts do at the begining of the show, and it was pitiful. It was not funny. It was painful to watch.
What the fuck is with this comedy on TV? Everyone always laughs at the unfunny horseshit these guys say. I was watching a program called 'Blue Collar TV' or something earlier today. See, they have a studio audience on it, like many shows. The thing was, the studio audience was laughing extremely enthusiastically after every retarded line these guys would say. And then the camera would pan over this studio audience, showing images of what appears to be the happiest people on the face of the earth. Not only would they laugh and clap, but they would turn to the people next to them and smile. See, the unfunny horseshit the guys on the tv show said not only made the studio audience laugh incessantly (sp?), but it also inspired them to love eachother. Or so it seemed. Fucking hell.
I remember when Brian said something like "It's only humans" one time about something. I really like that. I think about how Kurt Vonnegut talked about in the inside flap of some book how the first thing he learned in college for anthropology was that everyone is exactly the same. The point Brian and Kurt are trying to get across are very similar. I mean, I think of all the complications of life. How some people are poor and some are rich. How some people starve and some people fill themselves with food every second the get. How some people love eachother, how some hate eachother, how a girl tells you she misses you, how you tell her that you miss her too, and you aren't sure whether you really do. What does it matter. If you live life saying "It's only humans", what the hell is any of that going to matter to you? What the hell does anything matter? Nothing is important. Our brains tell us things are important. But it's just humans. Nothing is important.
But that doesn't make me happy to think. So instead I will belive I miss her and I will do my summer reading assignments before summer vacation is over.
I don't know why I do this. It's either a cry for someone to read my thoughts, to hear me. Or maybe it's because I enjoy rambling on, since I am not gonig to sleep, loaded up on caffeine from too much Coca Cola. Probably a little of both.
Be happy.