Just promise you'll never leave me.
I'm being wayyyyyy emo. Don't read if you can't handle it ..
Is it possible to be the happiest you've ever been, and still be so incredibly sad?
it HAS to be possible, cus that is how I feel.
I have surrsly NEVER been this happy before. I have never loved someone as much as I love Kris. I have never felt as good about myself as when I'm with him. I have never wanted to be with someone as much as I want to be with him.
And the GAYNESS is that he lives 1000 miles away. I can't see him when I want to. I can't just go over his house and watch a movie with him. I can't go to his shows and watch his sexy ass on stage (<3). I can't even cuddle with him or kiss him or hold his hand for christ's sake. All I can do is look at his pictures, listen to his band, and talk to him on the phone every night, which I am so so so appreciative of, but it's starting to irk me the fact that I haven't been physically able to see him in over a month. There's nothing in the world that I want more than to be with him.
I can't wait to get this family vacation over with so I can get to Philly and see him. It is going to be the best weekend ever. It is going to be so so so awesome cus it's going to be just US. No one there will know us. It's going to be the most relaxing, loving, thoughtful, intense, beautiful weekend imaginable. ::sigh::
Then after all that, I am going to concentrate on getting my money situation in order. AS SOON AS I AM ALL SET, I AM MOVING. I am done sitting here, wishing I was there. I am getting my ass in gear. I have already warned Jessica that I will prob be living with her hahah and I don't think she cares. I know she wants me down there just as bad as I want to be down there. It is so awesome to have people who live so far away care about me as much as Kris and Jessica do. I love them both dearly. Oh and DEAR GOD, I can't WAIT to have more retarded moments with my Jessica. ohhhhhhhhohoho yes! Then when I am all settled there, I am going to look for a STEADY FULL TIME job, so Kris and I can get our apartment, with our cats, and our sign on the door (The Seat's! hahaha) AND while I am getting my money sitch in order, Kris is going to be working on coming up here to visit me :) I can't wait for him to meet my friends. I can't wait for him to meet my mom. I just can't wait to have my boOoOoy here with me.
ok and onto where I ramble on and on about how wonderful my boOoOoOoy is <3
I have THE MOST SPECTACULAR boyfriend .. EVER. He is so sweet and adorable and beautiful and oh god .. he's hilarious (even if he doesn't know it :D). He makes me laugh and he makes me smile and oh he makes me BLUSH! He makes me the stupidest, silliest little school girl ever. Surrsly, I dont think there is a person out there who is more PERFECT for me. Our connection is so intense and beautiful. He is just a super super SUPER boyfriend <3 He has made me a better person. He has done so much for me and I thank him so so much for that. He is THE BEST thing that has ever happened to me. AND he is hot as hell!! Which only adds to how stunning of a person he is inside and out (<---GAY). MMMMMMM.
I miss you so much darling, that at most times it is unbearable, but just knowing that I have you and knowing nothing is going to ruin what we have is extremely enlightening to me.
You are my soul.
You are my heart.
I LOVE YOU
Is it possible to be the happiest you've ever been, and still be so incredibly sad?
it HAS to be possible, cus that is how I feel.
I have surrsly NEVER been this happy before. I have never loved someone as much as I love Kris. I have never felt as good about myself as when I'm with him. I have never wanted to be with someone as much as I want to be with him.
And the GAYNESS is that he lives 1000 miles away. I can't see him when I want to. I can't just go over his house and watch a movie with him. I can't go to his shows and watch his sexy ass on stage (<3). I can't even cuddle with him or kiss him or hold his hand for christ's sake. All I can do is look at his pictures, listen to his band, and talk to him on the phone every night, which I am so so so appreciative of, but it's starting to irk me the fact that I haven't been physically able to see him in over a month. There's nothing in the world that I want more than to be with him.
I can't wait to get this family vacation over with so I can get to Philly and see him. It is going to be the best weekend ever. It is going to be so so so awesome cus it's going to be just US. No one there will know us. It's going to be the most relaxing, loving, thoughtful, intense, beautiful weekend imaginable. ::sigh::
Then after all that, I am going to concentrate on getting my money situation in order. AS SOON AS I AM ALL SET, I AM MOVING. I am done sitting here, wishing I was there. I am getting my ass in gear. I have already warned Jessica that I will prob be living with her hahah and I don't think she cares. I know she wants me down there just as bad as I want to be down there. It is so awesome to have people who live so far away care about me as much as Kris and Jessica do. I love them both dearly. Oh and DEAR GOD, I can't WAIT to have more retarded moments with my Jessica. ohhhhhhhhohoho yes! Then when I am all settled there, I am going to look for a STEADY FULL TIME job, so Kris and I can get our apartment, with our cats, and our sign on the door (The Seat's! hahaha) AND while I am getting my money sitch in order, Kris is going to be working on coming up here to visit me :) I can't wait for him to meet my friends. I can't wait for him to meet my mom. I just can't wait to have my boOoOoy here with me.
ok and onto where I ramble on and on about how wonderful my boOoOoOoy is <3
I have THE MOST SPECTACULAR boyfriend .. EVER. He is so sweet and adorable and beautiful and oh god .. he's hilarious (even if he doesn't know it :D). He makes me laugh and he makes me smile and oh he makes me BLUSH! He makes me the stupidest, silliest little school girl ever. Surrsly, I dont think there is a person out there who is more PERFECT for me. Our connection is so intense and beautiful. He is just a super super SUPER boyfriend <3 He has made me a better person. He has done so much for me and I thank him so so much for that. He is THE BEST thing that has ever happened to me. AND he is hot as hell!! Which only adds to how stunning of a person he is inside and out (<---GAY). MMMMMMM.
I miss you so much darling, that at most times it is unbearable, but just knowing that I have you and knowing nothing is going to ruin what we have is extremely enlightening to me.
You are my soul.
You are my heart.
I LOVE YOU