my burning life

[ifalldownalot]

I bleed

underwater

where the air cant reach
and all that i was seeps out
making eddies and patterns that hypnotize in the water
making it cloudy

im jonah
the one i wrote about
the one who died
i should have known
that he was me
after all
i died
several times

what did i leave behind of myself each time i died?
what did i bring back from the forever
from the secret of last breaths
and final moments?

I am jonah
and im doomed to race the winding roads
doomed to kill and loose
doomed to take and finally be taken
but ive died before
and i often wonder
how many lives do i have left?
how much of me is there left to loose?
ive no soul to trap on paper
and my hand creates no beauty as it once did
the heavens are still
and my dreams are that of other men
men i think i once was