do you feel we've come too far?

[ifadebeforeyou]

there is truth in the eyes of the people we pursue, but they close them too often and say words and lines that we over analyze and then create excuses for. i am coming undone. i am a mess of inspiration because the world that is too often ugly has shown its beauty to me in ways i never thought i'd notice. but i sit in my car and look out my sunroof at the birds in the trees and i think about how they are living their lives like i am living mine. i watch the shadows they cast as they become silhouettes and i wish just for a moment everything could be that simple. like black and white, and the way i once compared you to being day and night. and how i live my life through song lyrics just to try to give more sense to it, but really when i take time to think about it, what does that even mean? remember when i stepped into your dreams and waking up was still the sweetest thing? now im awake for hours because the effort of closing and reopening my eyes is something too exhausting.  i've found that beauty and sadness come in pairs, and bad things really do come in threes. but do you ever wonder what goes through my head when i see you looking at me? this isnt what you may think, because reality is what reality shows. and really, i swear i'm doing okay, its just that today i cant seem to let go.

"Are you defined by all the things you want?
Or did you get caught up in the things that we are not? "