This is bullshit.
I cannot believe all of this. I am getting so fucking sick of all this shit. I cannot see him, he never fucking calls me, fuck its like im his little fucking toy. Im getting so fed up with it all. Its not fair that i dont feel good enough for him...no its fucking not. I was talking to my mom..yea we talked about it for a little bit. I am finally realizing that patricks got me whipped. FUCK im serious. Everything about this whole thing...I do like everything that he wants...well you know what...fuck that. Im so sick of it. Why should i call him...why cant he fucking call me for once...cos hell get in trouble? FUCK THAT. Dont be a wuss, pick up the phone and call me bitch. Seriously...when i talk to him...this is all he is going to hear + more. I dont know how much more of this shit i can take. Im about ready to blow. Its so exhausting to be in a relationship with someone who doesnt have the same feelings as you. So fucking annoying..i put way more out than he does..way more! Its stupid. God what do i have to do to this little bitch to make him realize...hello! you are like 5 seconds away from losing me. I dont like to wait around for people...and im not going to be his little bitch...god i feel so stupid. I mean..GOD! Im really ready to kick his ass. LOL. omgosh. He is such a tease. Maybe i should just forget about this one. Seriously..what the hell have I gotten from this? Except for heartache? I have gotten nothing. Ew im going to scream so loud that everyone will drop dead from their heads shattering. Love me damnint...call me, fucking take me somewhere, BUY ME A FUCKING FLOWER! FUCK MAN! im sorry for being so explicit and rah rah rah. I just cannot take this BUllshit for much longer. If we dont hang out this weekend..then fuck it...i will go hang out with someone else. Im not going to sit around fucking bored waiting for his assness to want to hang out. Argh...i dont knwo what to do...well i know what i should or could do...but i dont really want to. Lets just say he better not call until i have calmed myself down cos i have a lot of things that would just "slip" out of my mouth. Im going to kick someone in the balls....Anyways...im bored...i need to find something to do. I could be hanging out with patrick...obviously he has better things to take care of. Well im through...hes un leased the bitch in me...today may not be a good day in the eyes of patrick. GRRRR...so aggravated.