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You know as funny as it is, and as lonely as I get sometimes, I'm glad that I've cut all those people from my life. So many people that I used to call friends. So many people that I've known almost since I've moved here. All those people that were only my friend b/c he was my friend. All those people who were just nice to my face. All those years of bending over backwards just to get those people to like me. Most of the fear me or think I'm crazy. Why? No one ever told me. So many many poisonous people. So many people that rake on my nerves. The funny thing is is that people back home still love me and are still my friend. MY friend. Not because I was ((_______'s)) friend. They are my friend because there is something they see in me that not many people do.
I got tired of bending over backwards. I got tired of trying to fit in. I got so tired of people only being my friend because there was something to gain from it. I hate this place. I dislike all the shallow selfish people here. I dislike all the lying, all the drugs, all the childish behavior, all the back stabbing, all the boyfriend stealing, husband stealing, baby daddy stealing, all the manipulation. I loathe this place and what it stands for. All the fakes.
Yea, you know what I'm not perfect, but at least I have some self respect. I envy all the friends that have moved away from this place. All the friends that ran out of this state and never looked back.
I am a very happy person. I'm a friendly person. I'm open. I'm honest. I'm a giving person. My heart is big. I'm no where near to perfect. I have faults by the numbers. The best part of that is that you all STILL accuse me of being on some gold flaked pedestal. Seriously?
I am a loyal friend. I am a good friend. Few care to even notice ,and that's fine.
Some day me and Jimmy will leave you all behind, and for me atleast, it will feel good.
I got tired of bending over backwards. I got tired of trying to fit in. I got so tired of people only being my friend because there was something to gain from it. I hate this place. I dislike all the shallow selfish people here. I dislike all the lying, all the drugs, all the childish behavior, all the back stabbing, all the boyfriend stealing, husband stealing, baby daddy stealing, all the manipulation. I loathe this place and what it stands for. All the fakes.
Yea, you know what I'm not perfect, but at least I have some self respect. I envy all the friends that have moved away from this place. All the friends that ran out of this state and never looked back.
I am a very happy person. I'm a friendly person. I'm open. I'm honest. I'm a giving person. My heart is big. I'm no where near to perfect. I have faults by the numbers. The best part of that is that you all STILL accuse me of being on some gold flaked pedestal. Seriously?
I am a loyal friend. I am a good friend. Few care to even notice ,and that's fine.
Some day me and Jimmy will leave you all behind, and for me atleast, it will feel good.