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Oh wow.
I found Mike's page on myspace. I'd been thinking about him a lot today, I don't know why. Eric said "hello" to me yesterday, maybe that triggered it. he had deleted his myspace, but he made a new one.
There was a music video on it, and I realized it was Pieces by Sum 41. I rememeber when I first saw that music video. I was in my parent's room, watching TV upstairs and I started crying. This song was so him, but I figured it would always be the song he skipped. It was this music video that made me realize he looks a lot like the lead singer of Sum 41, and that I was the Avril to him.
Seeing THIS music video on his page, made my heart hurt. It made me cry, but of course I had to hold it back because dorm rooms offer no privacy. I feel responsible for this sad song being the one he decided to put on his page. It's like if I were to put the song Keeper on my profile.
I don't miss him. But I still don't think we're OVER. Just for now.
Because another thing I noticed on his page was "Children: someday". I never knew he wanted kids. I always knew we never relearned who we were, we just assumed we were still those 15-year-old kids, but we're not. I guess, I'm sad I didn't take the time to get to know this 19-year-old who's heart I'm pretty sure I'm breaking.
Cause I'm definatly breaking my own.
I found Mike's page on myspace. I'd been thinking about him a lot today, I don't know why. Eric said "hello" to me yesterday, maybe that triggered it. he had deleted his myspace, but he made a new one.
There was a music video on it, and I realized it was Pieces by Sum 41. I rememeber when I first saw that music video. I was in my parent's room, watching TV upstairs and I started crying. This song was so him, but I figured it would always be the song he skipped. It was this music video that made me realize he looks a lot like the lead singer of Sum 41, and that I was the Avril to him.
Seeing THIS music video on his page, made my heart hurt. It made me cry, but of course I had to hold it back because dorm rooms offer no privacy. I feel responsible for this sad song being the one he decided to put on his page. It's like if I were to put the song Keeper on my profile.
I don't miss him. But I still don't think we're OVER. Just for now.
Because another thing I noticed on his page was "Children: someday". I never knew he wanted kids. I always knew we never relearned who we were, we just assumed we were still those 15-year-old kids, but we're not. I guess, I'm sad I didn't take the time to get to know this 19-year-old who's heart I'm pretty sure I'm breaking.
Cause I'm definatly breaking my own.